I was bathing syiokly...and when i got out from my bathroom, i found out sth sticking on my bird...and when i revealed my towel to look at it...OMG IT'S A TAG!!! GUESS WHO PASTE THAT ON IT!!! IT'S A FAT FISH!!! *FAINT*
-The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points about his/her perfect lover.
-Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
-Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
-If you are tagged the second time.There is NO need to do this again.
-Lastly, most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT!! ^^
1. gender of perfect lover of coz girl...(refer to my gay & best fren post...sure know my opinions d =P)
2. my requirements are very low when i come to realize a lot of things lately...the main characteristics i seek for is: maturity, kindness, tolerance
3. i dun care about looks...once i fall in love with the person, even she kena burned, scratched, distorted i will still love her, as long as her characters don't change
4. able to bear ups and downs in life with me without getting too hysterical/hyper/losing her head over sth very happy or utmostly sad
5. I love cooking...and starting to learn cooking oso. I wish my perfect lover would let me do the cooking and HELP me out when i m cooking then ok d. =P
6. healthy lifestyle...such as haf regular exercises and know how to control her meals in healthy manner (not trying to keep a deadly/unagreeable diet or eating to achieve obesity)
7. frank communication...when it comes to quarrel or breakdown i will tell her what i truly feel, and i hope she did the same. after the dispute i will cool everything down and try to change myself surely. but if no frank communication happened during that moment, i will be very beh syiok...and it will build my anger up.
8. erm...critism is acceptable, as long as it's loving. one thing is, i sometimes need my time by myself. leave me alone when i say that i need to be alone.
9. I accept all religions but STRICTLY NO MUSLIMS.there're tonnes of good qualities ppl who are non-muslims.STRICTLY STRICTLY NO MUSLIMS.
hehe...whose bird/groin shall i tag...
1. wei zhi the alabai's bird
2. shao thing the tulan's bird
3. samuel loh howe chuan!!!
4. XINCI!!
5. UNCLE THEAM!!!
6. amoi/bak kim/bak kim bak/black king bar
7. EE LIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!
8. CHUAN WEI!!!!!
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Sunday, June 25, 2006
The Typical Penang Driver (Extreme Version)
I was on my freaking fast way to Lye Peng Travel Agency (Penang Road there…) to retrieve my passport after my China visa was ready on Friday…I drove with maximum speed I could on the road becoz a ping hwa fren going with us to HK said she gonna wait for me…but when half way to there, I wanna make a call…eh?? My hp leh????????? HOLY SHIT!!! Dun tell me I din bring it???? I went insane instantly and drove with double the speed back to my house, on the way back kena blocked by a lot fxxking school buses and desperate parents who forced their way to the side lane of ping hwa to park. I was so desperate then, and on the way back I honked god-knows how many times.
Finally I was home. I jumped down from my car after performing a drift-parking. (the tyres screeched in protest!!!) I went into my house, searched for my hp in every nook and cranny until my moh chang (hokkien, means hair all stands up in agony) but still cant find my hp…so in the end I decided to let it be. But when I hopped in my car, eh, why my hp is there at the corner of the passenger seat?? AHHH!!! IT MUST HAD SLIDED DOWN WHEN I DROVE!! HELL!!!! I punched my steering hard…God, I wasted 20 mins just like that!!
With three times the speed I stepped on the oil pedal and zoomed my old Datsun’s speed to 60 miles per hour towards Penang road…on the way to there, I thought ‘intelligently’ to myself that maybe I could avoid the ping hwa traffic by mere shortcuts ppl dunno…well, I succeeded mostly, until I chose the wrong road…the one leading to pulau tikus police station from the Bandar Baru supermarket road (I dunno what it is called…I hope u guys understand it)…Once I picked that road I knew I was gone case d…coz the traffic lights there are notorious for its ‘late-comings’ and short duration of green light. BUT THAT WAS NOT ALL. I was at the wrong place at the wrong time, surely! There was one freaking ang mor who was driving a big fat stupid mercedez benz, and she seemed not to know that road is meant for two lanes…one going straight to new gurney drive/turn left to One-stop and the other one turning right to the pulau tikus police station. (get to know it’s a female ang mor…coz I planned to show that driver the international symbol when I drove past the car...but in the end din do it). Well, I dunno it at start…but when cars from my behind starting to take over me and the cars in front using the wrong side of the road, I went frustrated. MY GOD, I WAS WAITING ETHICALLY AND U GUYS JUST DO THAT??? I was so tulan that I push my car so close to the back of the car in front to prevent a freaking proton saga to slit in. To voice my anger, I honked four times when that saga attempted to slit in by force and I scowled at the female Chinese driver. At that time the whole road went chaos. It was due to the proton saga was on the wrong side of the road, blocking every car coming down on the right. The whole traffic there just stucked and the other few cars which attempted to follow the proton saga’s example were stucked too behind, on the wrong side of the road too. I really boh chap siao…the proton saga driver oso not brave enuff to honk me. “It’s okay…” I said to myself. “it will clear up when the lights go green”
But hell, it din clear up!! Why?? Because now I found out there’s that freaking big fat mercedez not moving at all!!! That freaking ang mor who was so…..polite??? she just let every car coming from a small lane on the left from the dunno-what-it-is-called residential area (ah yeah, chuan wei lives there!!) into our road, which in turn we’re not moving, and the latecomers from the small lane got to enjoy the green light!!! And to my horror, the cars just couldn’t stop pouring out…they are………UNSTOPPABLE!!! The proton saga on my right finally got a chance when the cars coming down on the right reversed a lil to let her through……..GUESS WHERE’S SHE’S GOING?? My goodness she turns left to the small lane!!!! MY GOD!!! It was just so unethical of her!!! And for the next 5 minutes everything is chaos again…now the cars are moving…but it’s the cars from the small lane…moving to our rightful lanes because of that freaking mercedez, and cars from the small lane which turn right into the lane on my right get to move because the cars coming down from the right lane were all stucked by another trying-shortcut-by-driving-on-the-wrong-side-of-the-roads cars. It was too…..=.=||||||| therefore in the end I decided to join the race for the green light contest. I immediately reversed my car and drove my car to the wrong side of the road, forcing every car coming out from the small lane to stop, and then I saw the ang mor in the mercedez whom I planned to show the international sign to. Had it been a local I would have done that for sure! But I din…coz it’s ang mor…she din know a thing bout ‘politeness’ in penang drivers.
After owning my rightful turn and leaving every cars stucking behind me to clear up their own mess, I drove smoothly to Penang road without much troubles. After retrieving my passport, I went to my parking lot (I parked on the left side of the road, where there are yellow boxes for cars to park) to go home. I turned my head back to look at the cars traveling past me, finding a gap for me to join the traffic (there’s no worries for cars in front coz there’s no way a car could appear in front for I am on the left side of the road, and there are no roads for cars to come out from). My feet were ready on the clutch, brake and oil pedal, ready to move when I found a gap. But suddenly I braked in horror because my head turned back in time to spot a motorcyclist driving towards me. WHAT THE HECK??? HE’S ON THE WRONG SIDE OF THE ROAD!!! And that freaking motorcyclist is a ah pek summore, and he came out of nowhere!!! I was so shocked that I din even honk. The ah pek din even notice the dangers he had just undergone!!!
What a day for me as the typical Penang driver…just that all that I messed up with were extreme cases!!! Frightful ones but I escaped unscathed in the end too. Next time I gotta be more hiong d. In Penang, drivers who dun follow the rules haf the big say. It’s all about being hiong.
Finally I was home. I jumped down from my car after performing a drift-parking. (the tyres screeched in protest!!!) I went into my house, searched for my hp in every nook and cranny until my moh chang (hokkien, means hair all stands up in agony) but still cant find my hp…so in the end I decided to let it be. But when I hopped in my car, eh, why my hp is there at the corner of the passenger seat?? AHHH!!! IT MUST HAD SLIDED DOWN WHEN I DROVE!! HELL!!!! I punched my steering hard…God, I wasted 20 mins just like that!!
With three times the speed I stepped on the oil pedal and zoomed my old Datsun’s speed to 60 miles per hour towards Penang road…on the way to there, I thought ‘intelligently’ to myself that maybe I could avoid the ping hwa traffic by mere shortcuts ppl dunno…well, I succeeded mostly, until I chose the wrong road…the one leading to pulau tikus police station from the Bandar Baru supermarket road (I dunno what it is called…I hope u guys understand it)…Once I picked that road I knew I was gone case d…coz the traffic lights there are notorious for its ‘late-comings’ and short duration of green light. BUT THAT WAS NOT ALL. I was at the wrong place at the wrong time, surely! There was one freaking ang mor who was driving a big fat stupid mercedez benz, and she seemed not to know that road is meant for two lanes…one going straight to new gurney drive/turn left to One-stop and the other one turning right to the pulau tikus police station. (get to know it’s a female ang mor…coz I planned to show that driver the international symbol when I drove past the car...but in the end din do it). Well, I dunno it at start…but when cars from my behind starting to take over me and the cars in front using the wrong side of the road, I went frustrated. MY GOD, I WAS WAITING ETHICALLY AND U GUYS JUST DO THAT??? I was so tulan that I push my car so close to the back of the car in front to prevent a freaking proton saga to slit in. To voice my anger, I honked four times when that saga attempted to slit in by force and I scowled at the female Chinese driver. At that time the whole road went chaos. It was due to the proton saga was on the wrong side of the road, blocking every car coming down on the right. The whole traffic there just stucked and the other few cars which attempted to follow the proton saga’s example were stucked too behind, on the wrong side of the road too. I really boh chap siao…the proton saga driver oso not brave enuff to honk me. “It’s okay…” I said to myself. “it will clear up when the lights go green”
But hell, it din clear up!! Why?? Because now I found out there’s that freaking big fat mercedez not moving at all!!! That freaking ang mor who was so…..polite??? she just let every car coming from a small lane on the left from the dunno-what-it-is-called residential area (ah yeah, chuan wei lives there!!) into our road, which in turn we’re not moving, and the latecomers from the small lane got to enjoy the green light!!! And to my horror, the cars just couldn’t stop pouring out…they are………UNSTOPPABLE!!! The proton saga on my right finally got a chance when the cars coming down on the right reversed a lil to let her through……..GUESS WHERE’S SHE’S GOING?? My goodness she turns left to the small lane!!!! MY GOD!!! It was just so unethical of her!!! And for the next 5 minutes everything is chaos again…now the cars are moving…but it’s the cars from the small lane…moving to our rightful lanes because of that freaking mercedez, and cars from the small lane which turn right into the lane on my right get to move because the cars coming down from the right lane were all stucked by another trying-shortcut-by-driving-on-the-wrong-side-of-the-roads cars. It was too…..=.=||||||| therefore in the end I decided to join the race for the green light contest. I immediately reversed my car and drove my car to the wrong side of the road, forcing every car coming out from the small lane to stop, and then I saw the ang mor in the mercedez whom I planned to show the international sign to. Had it been a local I would have done that for sure! But I din…coz it’s ang mor…she din know a thing bout ‘politeness’ in penang drivers.
After owning my rightful turn and leaving every cars stucking behind me to clear up their own mess, I drove smoothly to Penang road without much troubles. After retrieving my passport, I went to my parking lot (I parked on the left side of the road, where there are yellow boxes for cars to park) to go home. I turned my head back to look at the cars traveling past me, finding a gap for me to join the traffic (there’s no worries for cars in front coz there’s no way a car could appear in front for I am on the left side of the road, and there are no roads for cars to come out from). My feet were ready on the clutch, brake and oil pedal, ready to move when I found a gap. But suddenly I braked in horror because my head turned back in time to spot a motorcyclist driving towards me. WHAT THE HECK??? HE’S ON THE WRONG SIDE OF THE ROAD!!! And that freaking motorcyclist is a ah pek summore, and he came out of nowhere!!! I was so shocked that I din even honk. The ah pek din even notice the dangers he had just undergone!!!
What a day for me as the typical Penang driver…just that all that I messed up with were extreme cases!!! Frightful ones but I escaped unscathed in the end too. Next time I gotta be more hiong d. In Penang, drivers who dun follow the rules haf the big say. It’s all about being hiong.
Thursday, June 15, 2006
The Undeniable Truth
I never wanted to write this. I knew it won’t come to me in any form of sensible notion but still the intuition drives me. It drives me hard, it infatuates me and it eats me from the inside every day and every minute I am breathing. I hope one day I will be released from this hell but I have been trying for two years. *deep sigh* I am still here. I tried to look at other girls but never once my heart could sway, not even a slight twitch of muscles. Therefore I guess if I didn’t write this I will soon become a pathetic soul encompassed by wild torments and anguish.
Long before I realize it was coming to me, I mean the gush of passions of love, it delved deep, residing silently. I would have guessed that will be the cherish of a lively sparkling chemistry of life, but then it seemed not to be.
After a few long chats with my best friend, acquiring advices and philosophies (impromptu? Lolz…) finally it came to me that I am a coward in the vocabulary of love. I am afraid to confess, I am afraid to ask something I really wanted to know, I am afraid to speak my true feelings…I am afraid to…I am afraid to…and I am afraid to!! God you name it. I feel the inferiority is infesting deep inside me, and it is disemboweling my organs which detect any sense of life in me. She is the one, it’s a truthful yes for me after I confirmed it two years ago when I met her, but then the fact which ‘I am not the one in her mind’ is topping over me, even for my situation now seems to be delightful and with hopes to my friends, this predicament/statement/fact/hypothesis is still superior over anything else. Or you speak as it suits, over everything. My heart aches with every thought of her and it aches even more when I struggle to get the very thought of my mind. It has lasted two years…I thought it would have stopped after I aborted the attempt of casting off my troubles by jumping off the train from KL last November (or December? I could barely remember). I hit my heart in the chest hard: “Mate, it’s time to stop thinking bout her”. It felt no pain. But only till now I realize the pain is still living inside me, just that it is kept aside from my thoughts. I think, after all, the very pain has become one of those subconscious vital signs in my life. It has become something like breathing and heartbeats, uncontrollable by the means of conscious minds.
Finally I come to understand why Dan could possibly love a girl for a time so long (10 years…or 9 years ++??) without falling for the others. He just couldn’t. I just couldn’t. I tried but I can’t. It’s like, everybody is telling us to think bout the reality, the real life, the future, the career, the jobs, the xxxx, the yyyy, the zzzz and till in the end it is nothing merely other than strong distress. I wanted to give her something, something I could which would serve to secure her life, and I would have given everything I have. But the age gap is there. I think a lot and I don’t think I am thinking too much. The problem still comes to the root of all roots: Will she accept it? Will she have any affection towards me? These questions trouble me so much until in the end I decided to give every single thing I have and not taking any. There I go, my friends, I am being eaten by the devil inside slowly. The grief and regrets inside build up every single day. I am helpless with myself. I have lots to give but I can’t because I am coward who couldn’t confess nor ask how she feels. I am a coward after all, ain’t it true? *deep deep sigh*
(Yellowcard – Gifts & Curses)
Mary belongs to the words of a song.
I try to be strong for her, try not to be wrong for her.
But she will not wait for me, anymore, anymore.
Why did I say all those things before? I was sure.
(She is the one), but I have a purpose,
(she is the one), and I have to fight this,
(she is the one), a villian I can't knock down.
I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
still I will always fight on for you.
Mary's alive in the bright New York sky,
the city lights shine for her, above them I cry for her.
Everything's small on the ground below, down below.
What if I fall, then where would I go, would she know?
(She is the one), all that I wanted,
(she is the one), and I will be haunted,
(she is the one), this gift is my curse for now.
I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
Still I will always fight on for you. Fight on for you ...
Above is the lyrics of a song which has accompanied my pain and sorrow all along. Yeah you bet it…it’s one of the songs written for the movie Spiderman 2. I am as pathetic as Peter Parker (spiderman). I failed to confess because I am a coward but still, every strife and hardships I am going through now or I had gone through in the past, she’s the person in my mind that I fight on with. I see her face with every punch I take…and every bone I break, it’s all for her.
Ya, my worst pains are words I cannot say, but still, I will always fight on for her. That, I believe, is the undeniable truth which I have been trying to deny for two years, and even now when I am writing this post.
Long before I realize it was coming to me, I mean the gush of passions of love, it delved deep, residing silently. I would have guessed that will be the cherish of a lively sparkling chemistry of life, but then it seemed not to be.
After a few long chats with my best friend, acquiring advices and philosophies (impromptu? Lolz…) finally it came to me that I am a coward in the vocabulary of love. I am afraid to confess, I am afraid to ask something I really wanted to know, I am afraid to speak my true feelings…I am afraid to…I am afraid to…and I am afraid to!! God you name it. I feel the inferiority is infesting deep inside me, and it is disemboweling my organs which detect any sense of life in me. She is the one, it’s a truthful yes for me after I confirmed it two years ago when I met her, but then the fact which ‘I am not the one in her mind’ is topping over me, even for my situation now seems to be delightful and with hopes to my friends, this predicament/statement/fact/hypothesis is still superior over anything else. Or you speak as it suits, over everything. My heart aches with every thought of her and it aches even more when I struggle to get the very thought of my mind. It has lasted two years…I thought it would have stopped after I aborted the attempt of casting off my troubles by jumping off the train from KL last November (or December? I could barely remember). I hit my heart in the chest hard: “Mate, it’s time to stop thinking bout her”. It felt no pain. But only till now I realize the pain is still living inside me, just that it is kept aside from my thoughts. I think, after all, the very pain has become one of those subconscious vital signs in my life. It has become something like breathing and heartbeats, uncontrollable by the means of conscious minds.
Finally I come to understand why Dan could possibly love a girl for a time so long (10 years…or 9 years ++??) without falling for the others. He just couldn’t. I just couldn’t. I tried but I can’t. It’s like, everybody is telling us to think bout the reality, the real life, the future, the career, the jobs, the xxxx, the yyyy, the zzzz and till in the end it is nothing merely other than strong distress. I wanted to give her something, something I could which would serve to secure her life, and I would have given everything I have. But the age gap is there. I think a lot and I don’t think I am thinking too much. The problem still comes to the root of all roots: Will she accept it? Will she have any affection towards me? These questions trouble me so much until in the end I decided to give every single thing I have and not taking any. There I go, my friends, I am being eaten by the devil inside slowly. The grief and regrets inside build up every single day. I am helpless with myself. I have lots to give but I can’t because I am coward who couldn’t confess nor ask how she feels. I am a coward after all, ain’t it true? *deep deep sigh*
(Yellowcard – Gifts & Curses)
Mary belongs to the words of a song.
I try to be strong for her, try not to be wrong for her.
But she will not wait for me, anymore, anymore.
Why did I say all those things before? I was sure.
(She is the one), but I have a purpose,
(she is the one), and I have to fight this,
(she is the one), a villian I can't knock down.
I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
still I will always fight on for you.
Mary's alive in the bright New York sky,
the city lights shine for her, above them I cry for her.
Everything's small on the ground below, down below.
What if I fall, then where would I go, would she know?
(She is the one), all that I wanted,
(she is the one), and I will be haunted,
(she is the one), this gift is my curse for now.
I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
Still I will always fight on for you. Fight on for you ...
Above is the lyrics of a song which has accompanied my pain and sorrow all along. Yeah you bet it…it’s one of the songs written for the movie Spiderman 2. I am as pathetic as Peter Parker (spiderman). I failed to confess because I am a coward but still, every strife and hardships I am going through now or I had gone through in the past, she’s the person in my mind that I fight on with. I see her face with every punch I take…and every bone I break, it’s all for her.
Ya, my worst pains are words I cannot say, but still, I will always fight on for her. That, I believe, is the undeniable truth which I have been trying to deny for two years, and even now when I am writing this post.
Friday, June 09, 2006
It's About The Concept Called Time
Hola guys…now back to update my blog on my private stuffs ;-)
I had been in KL from 28th May till 1st June, and I got back to Penang on the 2nd June bus. Well, u guys wont believe it…the bookfest is GRAND!! 5 big halls of KL Convention Center are allocated just to exhibit the books!! There’s one conference hall in level 3 is specially rented for the purpose of holding the talks of famous authors from hk, Taiwan, china and Malaysia like: 陶杰，戴晨志，安焕然，蔡志礼，李昂，柴松林，黎紫书，傅承得…and countless famous people from other fields such as real estate, toastmaster, cultural profession and a lot more…well, all those talks really taught me a lot of stuffs, and I think in the future those knowledge I acquire from their experienced talks will surely put to use some day. And I bought 7 books…plus caryn borrowed me 3 books, and I still got 6 books at home to read...so in total I hafta finish 16 books in one month before going HK!!!!!!!!!! OMG……………………!!!!!!! LOLZ….
Talking bout KL, that day I was in KL caryn wanna borrow me books but because of sleeping late and eating lunch, I was late…therefore I rushed like hell to the nearest Pasar Seni LRT station…I was so shit fast that I ran the whole way and at that time the LRT arrived!!!!!!!! I was so goddamn lucky, I told myself. Therefore I ran up the stairs and board the LRT, thinking that how am I gonna get rid of the sweats when arriving in KLCC. But wait a second…..why the LRT is moving to KL sentral instead of KLCC??? OMFG!!!!!! At that time I realized I board the wrong side of the LRT!!!!! *sigh* It took me more time to reach KLCC in the end coz hafta come down from the station of KL sentral and board the opposite side of the LRT…lolz
For you guys’ info, I gonna go HK on the 10th july plane…..but still everything hasn’t been done yet…..the packing-up lar and a lot of stuffs. Lolz. Will slowly settle it…dun worry!!! Btw these few days ur fren here is very happy…coz what I dreamed of in lower six and upper six now finally come true….sometimes I was wondering, things in life really change drastically…we could be sad in the past but happy and resolved now…last November when boarding the KTM train from KL to Penang I thought of jumping it because my heart was too damn hurt and torn apart. The pain was like the thorns of cacti, jabbing me now and then when I am least expecting it excruciatingly rip my flesh off, even in my dreams everything seemed to be so dark and evil. But now, something amiss has been mended and I think I am happy that I did not jump off the train that time. Therefore I would like to advise everyone who reads my blog…dun think too much about killing yourself…..things might be desperate and cannot be solved at that time u wanna die, but if u carry on ur life, u will see it solved in the end too…nothing is big and worth dying for. Life is life, and others still live on even you die too. You must live on to see what you are meant to do on this earth before killing yourself. The meaning of existence on this earth is never explained. Find it in your heart. It is always residing there. Don’t die if you still could not find it. Trust me. Live on, is what I say, my friends. It’s the concept called time.
I had been in KL from 28th May till 1st June, and I got back to Penang on the 2nd June bus. Well, u guys wont believe it…the bookfest is GRAND!! 5 big halls of KL Convention Center are allocated just to exhibit the books!! There’s one conference hall in level 3 is specially rented for the purpose of holding the talks of famous authors from hk, Taiwan, china and Malaysia like: 陶杰，戴晨志，安焕然，蔡志礼，李昂，柴松林，黎紫书，傅承得…and countless famous people from other fields such as real estate, toastmaster, cultural profession and a lot more…well, all those talks really taught me a lot of stuffs, and I think in the future those knowledge I acquire from their experienced talks will surely put to use some day. And I bought 7 books…plus caryn borrowed me 3 books, and I still got 6 books at home to read...so in total I hafta finish 16 books in one month before going HK!!!!!!!!!! OMG……………………!!!!!!! LOLZ….
Talking bout KL, that day I was in KL caryn wanna borrow me books but because of sleeping late and eating lunch, I was late…therefore I rushed like hell to the nearest Pasar Seni LRT station…I was so shit fast that I ran the whole way and at that time the LRT arrived!!!!!!!! I was so goddamn lucky, I told myself. Therefore I ran up the stairs and board the LRT, thinking that how am I gonna get rid of the sweats when arriving in KLCC. But wait a second…..why the LRT is moving to KL sentral instead of KLCC??? OMFG!!!!!! At that time I realized I board the wrong side of the LRT!!!!! *sigh* It took me more time to reach KLCC in the end coz hafta come down from the station of KL sentral and board the opposite side of the LRT…lolz
For you guys’ info, I gonna go HK on the 10th july plane…..but still everything hasn’t been done yet…..the packing-up lar and a lot of stuffs. Lolz. Will slowly settle it…dun worry!!! Btw these few days ur fren here is very happy…coz what I dreamed of in lower six and upper six now finally come true….sometimes I was wondering, things in life really change drastically…we could be sad in the past but happy and resolved now…last November when boarding the KTM train from KL to Penang I thought of jumping it because my heart was too damn hurt and torn apart. The pain was like the thorns of cacti, jabbing me now and then when I am least expecting it excruciatingly rip my flesh off, even in my dreams everything seemed to be so dark and evil. But now, something amiss has been mended and I think I am happy that I did not jump off the train that time. Therefore I would like to advise everyone who reads my blog…dun think too much about killing yourself…..things might be desperate and cannot be solved at that time u wanna die, but if u carry on ur life, u will see it solved in the end too…nothing is big and worth dying for. Life is life, and others still live on even you die too. You must live on to see what you are meant to do on this earth before killing yourself. The meaning of existence on this earth is never explained. Find it in your heart. It is always residing there. Don’t die if you still could not find it. Trust me. Live on, is what I say, my friends. It’s the concept called time.
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
Bird’s Birdy Forum Part I
Topic: The Difference Of Gay/Lesbian and Best Frens…The Male and Female Dilemma
I have been drenching and thoroughly immersed in my own thoughts ever since I read an ‘ancient’ blog post of Wei Zhi (Holy-days-The Path of the Slack Guru, posted on Tuesday, September 27, 2005) and a comment by Jiah Ling which printed: “y is it that when 2 guys watch a movie it's gay but when 2 gals go out for a movie it's not?!!?? weird....” (first comment under the blog title as mentioned above, fourth paragraph)…Ignoring the misdemeanour of the ‘careless comment’ posted by Jiah Ling at first, thinking that she’s rather injudicious and tactless (or rather sleepy??) while she’s writing that, after some time it struck me in a twinkling: Would it be possible that both genders have different interpretation of gay/lesbian and best friends?
Therefore after confining myself to readings and contemplation for about a week, I think I have rigorously found the indistinct line of how male and female separate gay/lesbian and best friends both from the official and unofficial manners. Of course, it’s my own point of view, therefore I post this in order to refine it by receiving comments from you all considering this topic.
Official Manners:
Holding Hands
To the girls, to hold the hand of another girl means to establish a bond and trust in her, therefore it is an honour, leading to secrets sharing and sisterhood. It is merely an understandable ritual between both girls who are ready for the term ‘best friends of a lifetime’.
To the guys, to hold the hand of a girl means that after so much strife and hardships we finally are able to entrust our own feelings to that girl, and therefore take the lead of steering the girl’s living into the zone we name ‘love and security’. (this statement does not include ‘playboys’) Therefore, to guys, holding the hand of another guy in a way clashes with our predominant principle of the official ‘hold hands’ meaning and atmosphere. To guys, everything is simple enough and only has one definition. Therefore to hold hands = gay.
Watching movie
To the girls, watching movie alone with another girl is no big deal. To watch movie is to watch movie…where is there to worry about? They are there to enjoy the storyline and the romance of the production…so what?
To the guys…..NO NO NO. Watching movies is a pre-arranged and well-planned notion to get close with the girls we admire or wish to flirt with. Of course, watching movies with a gang of guys is a normal outing activity with no special intentions at all. But if it’s down to watching movie alone with another guy, the first thought came into our mind (even that is our best friend) is: OMG OMG, I am not gonna flirt with this guy, ain’t i??
Sharing the Same Ice-cream
To the girls, guy’s saliva may be disgusting but saliva of the same sex seems not to be that threatening after all. Best friends sharing the same ice-cream? Argh, nvm lar of coz!!! Nothing much right?
To the guys, girl’s saliva is a precious, while guy’s saliva is totally…TOTALLY UNACCEPTABLE!!!! To us, sharing saliva with the girl we are in relationship is an unspoken excitement, depicting further acceptance of our love from the girls, or in flirtatious mood, something to be proud of. THIS FEELING TOTALLY SHATTERS WHEN WE WERE TO SHARE ANOTHER GUY’S SALIVA!!! Told you!!! Guys’ way of thinking is straight forward and one-way-street! Everything is simple enough!!! We don’t accept another definition for that!! Those guys who did, they are GAY~~~!!!!
Verbal Expressions
To the girls, being each other’s best friends means to care for the other, and to be there for her all the while, helping each other to get through aught and everything no matter it’s a minor problem or a major catastrophe. Therefore a girl could say this without any doubt to her female best friend: “I will care and be there for you no matter what!” without arousing any sudden glares or scowls.
To the guys, being each other’s best friends means to die trying to help the other out WHEN HE IS IN DEEP SHIT. If you boh-suu-boh-eiao (hokkien, meaning nothing to do) go and say this “I will care and be there for you no matter what!” to our best friend when everything is tranquil and peaceful, both of us will definitely feel very awkward, strange and GAY!
Unofficial Manners:
Distance between Best Friends when Sitting Next to Each Other
To the girls, being best friends is something affectionate and definitely worth cherish for! Therefore female best friends will choose to sit closely to each other, closer = the better friends and tighter the bond.
To the guys, there’s only girls whom we would like to sit closely with…for best friends? We will keep a safe and understandable distance between each other even when we were alone and to talk about secrets + sharing opinions of life. SITTING THAT CLOSE??? OMG THAT’S GAY!
Hugging
To the girls, female best friends hugging each other while walking together from any and every angles work just fine…it’s affectionate, and it’s warm and it’s caring.
To the guys, best friends hugging each other? Well, see where are you hugging! Male best friends often hug each other by the shoulder while walking…if they hug each other by the waist, OMG, THAT’S GAY! It’s because we use to hug a girl by the waist…it too, depicts that ‘this girl is mine now’ sort of ego. Girls, if a guy hugs you by the shoulder, BEWARE! Guys, if a guy hugs you by the waist, you knew it……IT’S GAY!!!
Well, from both official and unofficial manners, guys and girls differ much…it’s because guys are built simple and with ego! Well, I hope the girls could give me different approaches to this topic…I could have thought the wrong way the girls did in those ‘To the girls….” section….so please correct me and discuss with me in the comments section freely!!
WARNING: The above statements, especially the ‘To the guys…’ section does not include playboys, player and that sort of. It’s the same in the ‘To the girls…’ section.
I have been drenching and thoroughly immersed in my own thoughts ever since I read an ‘ancient’ blog post of Wei Zhi (Holy-days-The Path of the Slack Guru, posted on Tuesday, September 27, 2005) and a comment by Jiah Ling which printed: “y is it that when 2 guys watch a movie it's gay but when 2 gals go out for a movie it's not?!!?? weird....” (first comment under the blog title as mentioned above, fourth paragraph)…Ignoring the misdemeanour of the ‘careless comment’ posted by Jiah Ling at first, thinking that she’s rather injudicious and tactless (or rather sleepy??) while she’s writing that, after some time it struck me in a twinkling: Would it be possible that both genders have different interpretation of gay/lesbian and best friends?
Therefore after confining myself to readings and contemplation for about a week, I think I have rigorously found the indistinct line of how male and female separate gay/lesbian and best friends both from the official and unofficial manners. Of course, it’s my own point of view, therefore I post this in order to refine it by receiving comments from you all considering this topic.
Official Manners:
Holding Hands
To the girls, to hold the hand of another girl means to establish a bond and trust in her, therefore it is an honour, leading to secrets sharing and sisterhood. It is merely an understandable ritual between both girls who are ready for the term ‘best friends of a lifetime’.
To the guys, to hold the hand of a girl means that after so much strife and hardships we finally are able to entrust our own feelings to that girl, and therefore take the lead of steering the girl’s living into the zone we name ‘love and security’. (this statement does not include ‘playboys’) Therefore, to guys, holding the hand of another guy in a way clashes with our predominant principle of the official ‘hold hands’ meaning and atmosphere. To guys, everything is simple enough and only has one definition. Therefore to hold hands = gay.
Watching movie
To the girls, watching movie alone with another girl is no big deal. To watch movie is to watch movie…where is there to worry about? They are there to enjoy the storyline and the romance of the production…so what?
To the guys…..NO NO NO. Watching movies is a pre-arranged and well-planned notion to get close with the girls we admire or wish to flirt with. Of course, watching movies with a gang of guys is a normal outing activity with no special intentions at all. But if it’s down to watching movie alone with another guy, the first thought came into our mind (even that is our best friend) is: OMG OMG, I am not gonna flirt with this guy, ain’t i??
Sharing the Same Ice-cream
To the girls, guy’s saliva may be disgusting but saliva of the same sex seems not to be that threatening after all. Best friends sharing the same ice-cream? Argh, nvm lar of coz!!! Nothing much right?
To the guys, girl’s saliva is a precious, while guy’s saliva is totally…TOTALLY UNACCEPTABLE!!!! To us, sharing saliva with the girl we are in relationship is an unspoken excitement, depicting further acceptance of our love from the girls, or in flirtatious mood, something to be proud of. THIS FEELING TOTALLY SHATTERS WHEN WE WERE TO SHARE ANOTHER GUY’S SALIVA!!! Told you!!! Guys’ way of thinking is straight forward and one-way-street! Everything is simple enough!!! We don’t accept another definition for that!! Those guys who did, they are GAY~~~!!!!
Verbal Expressions
To the girls, being each other’s best friends means to care for the other, and to be there for her all the while, helping each other to get through aught and everything no matter it’s a minor problem or a major catastrophe. Therefore a girl could say this without any doubt to her female best friend: “I will care and be there for you no matter what!” without arousing any sudden glares or scowls.
To the guys, being each other’s best friends means to die trying to help the other out WHEN HE IS IN DEEP SHIT. If you boh-suu-boh-eiao (hokkien, meaning nothing to do) go and say this “I will care and be there for you no matter what!” to our best friend when everything is tranquil and peaceful, both of us will definitely feel very awkward, strange and GAY!
Unofficial Manners:
Distance between Best Friends when Sitting Next to Each Other
To the girls, being best friends is something affectionate and definitely worth cherish for! Therefore female best friends will choose to sit closely to each other, closer = the better friends and tighter the bond.
To the guys, there’s only girls whom we would like to sit closely with…for best friends? We will keep a safe and understandable distance between each other even when we were alone and to talk about secrets + sharing opinions of life. SITTING THAT CLOSE??? OMG THAT’S GAY!
Hugging
To the girls, female best friends hugging each other while walking together from any and every angles work just fine…it’s affectionate, and it’s warm and it’s caring.
To the guys, best friends hugging each other? Well, see where are you hugging! Male best friends often hug each other by the shoulder while walking…if they hug each other by the waist, OMG, THAT’S GAY! It’s because we use to hug a girl by the waist…it too, depicts that ‘this girl is mine now’ sort of ego. Girls, if a guy hugs you by the shoulder, BEWARE! Guys, if a guy hugs you by the waist, you knew it……IT’S GAY!!!
Well, from both official and unofficial manners, guys and girls differ much…it’s because guys are built simple and with ego! Well, I hope the girls could give me different approaches to this topic…I could have thought the wrong way the girls did in those ‘To the girls….” section….so please correct me and discuss with me in the comments section freely!!
WARNING: The above statements, especially the ‘To the guys…’ section does not include playboys, player and that sort of. It’s the same in the ‘To the girls…’ section.
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
The Ultimate 'Communication' Master -----> GLO
Wah today is so gy......u guys used to know that i teach tuition right? and today i stayed back after teaching them for a while, just for the purpose of talking bullshit.
Well, i bullshited a lot to them...lemme describe it...:
the fat gal, form 4, of my class (my class only consisted of three students) was asked by her grandma to drink sum 鸡精 before her exam...(pcghs exam is around the corner...) n she refused coz she said 鸡精 is very hot and not suitable for the body...well, very gai coz she went and asked me what is 鸡精 made of...then the bullshitting commences!!! I said, well, 鸡精, as how the words implied, is made by the sperms of chickens...then she laughed (the whole class oso) laughed in disbelief,she straight said i m a cheater (OF COZ I AM!!!)....but, keeping a really straight face, i looked at her, and started to wave my hands (like how the politicians do in their speech) and i actually go and draw a few organics structure representing the nutrients of the sperms of chicken (of coz bluff one) and bragged about how scientist found out why sperms of chickens are nice for health...
well, after 15 mins of bullshit, all of the class actually looked serious now...and they listened to me very carefully......all look so stern and slowly come to an agreement that i m saying the truth after they asked me a few questions (answered easily by organic chem...) and then the fat gal asked me another stupid question: then how the farm ppl get the sperms from the chickens ar?
Then i started...well, i said, u might not believe it u know, but i've seen the report from england actually.
They all looked so serious.
I continued:
The farm ppl...they put sex videos of chickens mating for them to see....on four televisions surrounding the barn...then the male chickens will start masturbating and then they collect the sperms from under the barn....well....in the past, they used to seduce the male chickens manually by using hands....that's why 鸡精 so expensive in the past and nowadays not so expensive d coz the production cost being cut down....
HAHAHAAHAHA......i laughed till wanna blow in my heart but looking at their serious faces, i decided not to break this 'joke'...and i laughed till wanna burst on my way back to my house......HAHAHAHHAA
and this fat gal oso very funny....i keh si keh si talk about bluffed stuffs of me and girls kissing....plus watching sex videos together to cut down the urge to make sex...(bluff till wanna ki siao d), well i bluffed seriously, and she really took it seriously!! GOD!!! and in the end i made her declared that she watched gangbangs sex videos of 3 ppl in front of the class, thus admitted that she searched for porn online oso........HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.....HIAK HIAK HIAK
and in the end before i left, i told them of a sex videos of the NTU & UTAR students making sex (they shot it with hp one)....how interesting it is and how keng it is then they all asked from me !!! (the fat gal, the other gal in the class and the clhs guy). Well, i said NO of coz.....but if.....i told them, u get 80 marks in ur coming add maths exam then i will lend them the videos + a lot of freebies :D :D
THEY ALL GO UPROAR....and they swear die oso wanna try......HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! LOLZ LOLZ!!!!! this is really SIAO MAN....well, i am very confident they wont get so good a results....coz their add maths less than 20 marks one........HIAK HIAK HIAK....well, u see, teaching tuition can be fun oso, if u know how to bullshit and dig stuffs from ur students!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAA
Well, i bullshited a lot to them...lemme describe it...:
the fat gal, form 4, of my class (my class only consisted of three students) was asked by her grandma to drink sum 鸡精 before her exam...(pcghs exam is around the corner...) n she refused coz she said 鸡精 is very hot and not suitable for the body...well, very gai coz she went and asked me what is 鸡精 made of...then the bullshitting commences!!! I said, well, 鸡精, as how the words implied, is made by the sperms of chickens...then she laughed (the whole class oso) laughed in disbelief,she straight said i m a cheater (OF COZ I AM!!!)....but, keeping a really straight face, i looked at her, and started to wave my hands (like how the politicians do in their speech) and i actually go and draw a few organics structure representing the nutrients of the sperms of chicken (of coz bluff one) and bragged about how scientist found out why sperms of chickens are nice for health...
well, after 15 mins of bullshit, all of the class actually looked serious now...and they listened to me very carefully......all look so stern and slowly come to an agreement that i m saying the truth after they asked me a few questions (answered easily by organic chem...) and then the fat gal asked me another stupid question: then how the farm ppl get the sperms from the chickens ar?
Then i started...well, i said, u might not believe it u know, but i've seen the report from england actually.
They all looked so serious.
I continued:
The farm ppl...they put sex videos of chickens mating for them to see....on four televisions surrounding the barn...then the male chickens will start masturbating and then they collect the sperms from under the barn....well....in the past, they used to seduce the male chickens manually by using hands....that's why 鸡精 so expensive in the past and nowadays not so expensive d coz the production cost being cut down....
HAHAHAAHAHA......i laughed till wanna blow in my heart but looking at their serious faces, i decided not to break this 'joke'...and i laughed till wanna burst on my way back to my house......HAHAHAHHAA
and this fat gal oso very funny....i keh si keh si talk about bluffed stuffs of me and girls kissing....plus watching sex videos together to cut down the urge to make sex...(bluff till wanna ki siao d), well i bluffed seriously, and she really took it seriously!! GOD!!! and in the end i made her declared that she watched gangbangs sex videos of 3 ppl in front of the class, thus admitted that she searched for porn online oso........HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.....HIAK HIAK HIAK
and in the end before i left, i told them of a sex videos of the NTU & UTAR students making sex (they shot it with hp one)....how interesting it is and how keng it is then they all asked from me !!! (the fat gal, the other gal in the class and the clhs guy). Well, i said NO of coz.....but if.....i told them, u get 80 marks in ur coming add maths exam then i will lend them the videos + a lot of freebies :D :D
THEY ALL GO UPROAR....and they swear die oso wanna try......HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! LOLZ LOLZ!!!!! this is really SIAO MAN....well, i am very confident they wont get so good a results....coz their add maths less than 20 marks one........HIAK HIAK HIAK....well, u see, teaching tuition can be fun oso, if u know how to bullshit and dig stuffs from ur students!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAA
Sunday, May 07, 2006
HKUST is the short form for? guess.....;-)
Haha…guys sorry ya long time din blog. These few days I have contacted several ppl who are going HKUST as well…hmm, the list is provided by HKUST’s permission after we asked from them. Everyone has nice chat and happy to make new frens as well…I think it’s not so lonely anymore in HK.
Hey hey…guess what we have contacted our senior from Jit Sin who is doing his second year there…well, he said to us that HKUST stands for Hong Kong University of Stress and Tension…ah that really put us into a seriously troublesome state…dakada he told us to play hard during this time being…;-)
We proposed to reach HK by July 10th…taking the Cathay plane at 7.45 am on the 10th. Still it’s not really settled down, just a pre-plan….or u call that as a draft? ;-) Well guys that’s becoz we have a summer programme commencing on 12th July, and I also think it would be convenient if I could reach there earlier by one or two days to prepare stuffs…coz we hafta take exams after the programme ends sux hor?
I am still considering of buying a laptop before going HK…well, since xinch has been back in pg these few days, I think I would go around with her looking at the models…the specs and stuffs, then only decide what to buy…..and xinch and I just discovered that I have amnesia problem from an event occurred long long time ago one…..well, we will keep that as a secret, right, xinch? ;-)
These few days my dial-up really got problems…kept disconnecting on its own and worse still, even I get connected after a while, I cant load anything coz it’s not ‘really’ connected as how it seems….strange hor? *sigh*
Well, I oso a lil paiseh these few days coz I overheard sum casual jogging fellows in the botanical gardens talking bout me….saying that I haf good stamina and cannot stop once I started running kinda stuffs…..hahahahahahaha…..it’s not that I wanna show or sth….just to clarify that I am not like how they put it!! :-P If u dun believe it, come and have a jog with me then u know! Hahahahaha :-P :-P
Hey hey…guess what we have contacted our senior from Jit Sin who is doing his second year there…well, he said to us that HKUST stands for Hong Kong University of Stress and Tension…ah that really put us into a seriously troublesome state…dakada he told us to play hard during this time being…;-)
We proposed to reach HK by July 10th…taking the Cathay plane at 7.45 am on the 10th. Still it’s not really settled down, just a pre-plan….or u call that as a draft? ;-) Well guys that’s becoz we have a summer programme commencing on 12th July, and I also think it would be convenient if I could reach there earlier by one or two days to prepare stuffs…coz we hafta take exams after the programme ends sux hor?
I am still considering of buying a laptop before going HK…well, since xinch has been back in pg these few days, I think I would go around with her looking at the models…the specs and stuffs, then only decide what to buy…..and xinch and I just discovered that I have amnesia problem from an event occurred long long time ago one…..well, we will keep that as a secret, right, xinch? ;-)
These few days my dial-up really got problems…kept disconnecting on its own and worse still, even I get connected after a while, I cant load anything coz it’s not ‘really’ connected as how it seems….strange hor? *sigh*
Well, I oso a lil paiseh these few days coz I overheard sum casual jogging fellows in the botanical gardens talking bout me….saying that I haf good stamina and cannot stop once I started running kinda stuffs…..hahahahahahaha…..it’s not that I wanna show or sth….just to clarify that I am not like how they put it!! :-P If u dun believe it, come and have a jog with me then u know! Hahahahaha :-P :-P
Friday, April 28, 2006
In the End....Hong Kong It is...Will Our Divided Path Join Again??
Sorry that I din update my blog coz my monitor finally died on Thursday morning 11.45 am…no matter how I tried to revive it…well….it’s not the cable problem either….*long sigh* so it’s DEAD. Well I m able to blog now becoz I just bought a new CRT monitor 15 inches…for RM 288. I think the price ok lar….got two years guarantee summore.
Hehe…anyway guys I M BACK!!!! Dun worry bout that leh…
Btw I think in the end it’s Hong Kong for me ler…I haf submitted the forms and stuffs and in two months’ time I will be off to HK…early July I think coz I hafta go through a summer programme before the uni programme commences….
I chose HKUST coz :
First, approximately I will spend HKD10,000 more each year in HKUST other than the HKD100,000 the uni gonna give me each year….and in total that would be, HKD30,000 which is equal to RM14,000. Comparing to Singapore where I dun haf any scholarship at all, thinking that if I might get full loan, I still hafta pay like RM48,000 at least for my accommodation and living expenses in that four years of studies….
Second, HKUST has a 3 years course while Singapore uni is 4 years. One year less and PLUS HKIE is one of the signatory boards in the world organization of IE…Singapore is not (I heard that Singapore is trying to sign up for the signatory board…).Course approved by HK has more power in the terms of worldwide job prospect. And I can work in Malaysia as well. ;-)
Third, THERE IS NO BOND!!! Singapore unis have bonds on u such that u hafta work for them after finishing ur course but HK doesn’t have that crap…..
So in the end it’s HK right? *deep sigh* Altho I dun really feel like going but I dun think wanna miss this chance of a lifetime to slip past me….And now I really dun feel like leaving ler…………..ARGGGHH!!! I m so not ready for this!!!
Well, all u guys know…in the end our gang all separated d…..Australia (Perth, Melbourne, Brisbane), Russia, England, Japan, Singapore, KL and now I m going Hong Kong….i guess finally it has reached the time for us to explore and conquer the world!!!! GAMBATTE KUDASAI!!!! ARGHHH!!
Hehe…anyway guys I M BACK!!!! Dun worry bout that leh…
Btw I think in the end it’s Hong Kong for me ler…I haf submitted the forms and stuffs and in two months’ time I will be off to HK…early July I think coz I hafta go through a summer programme before the uni programme commences….
I chose HKUST coz :
First, approximately I will spend HKD10,000 more each year in HKUST other than the HKD100,000 the uni gonna give me each year….and in total that would be, HKD30,000 which is equal to RM14,000. Comparing to Singapore where I dun haf any scholarship at all, thinking that if I might get full loan, I still hafta pay like RM48,000 at least for my accommodation and living expenses in that four years of studies….
Second, HKUST has a 3 years course while Singapore uni is 4 years. One year less and PLUS HKIE is one of the signatory boards in the world organization of IE…Singapore is not (I heard that Singapore is trying to sign up for the signatory board…).Course approved by HK has more power in the terms of worldwide job prospect. And I can work in Malaysia as well. ;-)
Third, THERE IS NO BOND!!! Singapore unis have bonds on u such that u hafta work for them after finishing ur course but HK doesn’t have that crap…..
So in the end it’s HK right? *deep sigh* Altho I dun really feel like going but I dun think wanna miss this chance of a lifetime to slip past me….And now I really dun feel like leaving ler…………..ARGGGHH!!! I m so not ready for this!!!
Well, all u guys know…in the end our gang all separated d…..Australia (Perth, Melbourne, Brisbane), Russia, England, Japan, Singapore, KL and now I m going Hong Kong….i guess finally it has reached the time for us to explore and conquer the world!!!! GAMBATTE KUDASAI!!!! ARGHHH!!
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
OMFG....BIRD GHEE'S PROFILE IS BEING VIEWED????
WAHLIEW GUYS U NVR WANT TO MESS WITH HONG KONG PPL I TELL U!!! SHIT THEY ARE SO EFFICIENT AND 'RESPONSIBLE'???? (or 'over-responsible'?)
God, i tot they are just going to call me telling me about the procedures and stuffs...ok...at start it seems to be like that....i mar listen lor.....oh....they are doing accreditation every five years...this year is the year they are doing the accreditation for civil engineering programme for HKUST....according to past 10 years record which all pass the accreditation it wont be much of a problem kinda talk.......
okay......it seems fine....but it still doesn't gimme confidence....until 20 mins later she suddenly asked: "yaya...i understand that u r a scholarship holder for civil engineering programme in HKUST?"
i started to sweat a lil....how did she know??
then the answer came swiftly: "ya i talked to the executives of civil engineering department of HKUST regarding this question that u haf asked me after the meeting with her...u r from malaysia right?"
*sweating more now* I swallowed my saliva hard and answered: "hmm...ya."
she continued,"well, i understand that the executive of HKUST civil engineering department Joanne had e-mailed u right? and i oso talked with the programme coordinator and this is my personal view...dun worry about the accreditation...."
i was about to say "hmm thank you" but there was no chance coz i m sweating hard...
then she said: "i heard that u r a very good student...just dun worry about it...even it's the worst case senario where it is not accredited, we will give the uni a year to improve it....the year of updating which is ur intake, wil; oso be covered..."
*SWEAT TILL CANNOT BREATHE LIAO*
there ended the phone convo by thx you and stuffs.
I M IN SHOCK......I M STILL IN SHOCK NOW. wahliew DOES A HKIE ADMIN has to take my e-mail so seriously???????????THIS IS......ARGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! AND I AM NOT EVEN A GOOD STUDENT!!!!!!!!!
in the depth of my heart i am thinking that i dun wanna go HKUST coz if i go there my results sux then.............................*sweat sweat sweat sweat*
A WARNING TO YOU GUYS!!!! DUN MESS WITH HK PPL.......THEY WILL TAKE THEIR JOBS SERIOUSLY AND THEY WILL CHECK UR PROFILE!!!! DUN SIAO SIAO!!!!!!! ESPECIALLY HKIE!!!!!!
God, i tot they are just going to call me telling me about the procedures and stuffs...ok...at start it seems to be like that....i mar listen lor.....oh....they are doing accreditation every five years...this year is the year they are doing the accreditation for civil engineering programme for HKUST....according to past 10 years record which all pass the accreditation it wont be much of a problem kinda talk.......
okay......it seems fine....but it still doesn't gimme confidence....until 20 mins later she suddenly asked: "yaya...i understand that u r a scholarship holder for civil engineering programme in HKUST?"
i started to sweat a lil....how did she know??
then the answer came swiftly: "ya i talked to the executives of civil engineering department of HKUST regarding this question that u haf asked me after the meeting with her...u r from malaysia right?"
*sweating more now* I swallowed my saliva hard and answered: "hmm...ya."
she continued,"well, i understand that the executive of HKUST civil engineering department Joanne had e-mailed u right? and i oso talked with the programme coordinator and this is my personal view...dun worry about the accreditation...."
i was about to say "hmm thank you" but there was no chance coz i m sweating hard...
then she said: "i heard that u r a very good student...just dun worry about it...even it's the worst case senario where it is not accredited, we will give the uni a year to improve it....the year of updating which is ur intake, wil; oso be covered..."
*SWEAT TILL CANNOT BREATHE LIAO*
there ended the phone convo by thx you and stuffs.
I M IN SHOCK......I M STILL IN SHOCK NOW. wahliew DOES A HKIE ADMIN has to take my e-mail so seriously???????????THIS IS......ARGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! AND I AM NOT EVEN A GOOD STUDENT!!!!!!!!!
in the depth of my heart i am thinking that i dun wanna go HKUST coz if i go there my results sux then.............................*sweat sweat sweat sweat*
A WARNING TO YOU GUYS!!!! DUN MESS WITH HK PPL.......THEY WILL TAKE THEIR JOBS SERIOUSLY AND THEY WILL CHECK UR PROFILE!!!! DUN SIAO SIAO!!!!!!! ESPECIALLY HKIE!!!!!!
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
WAHLIEW...AEGIS OF IMMORTAL??
OMFG......guys this is absolutely crazy.....
last night (monday night) i was updating my blog and chatting suddenly my monitor screen blacked out and nvr on again.....i frantically switched off the whole computer and then on it again.....still cannot!!! then i pulled out the monitor data plug from my cpu and try again....CANNOT!
Frustrated, i then switch power plug to another power source to ascertain whether the power source supplying electricity to my monitor could be down or sth....STILL CANNOT
Not willing to give up, i rest the cpu (surely it is not cpu problem...coz the data signal is still on and i can still hear the Beatles singing in my speakers)...and repeated the process mentioned above after every consequent hour till 4 am in the morning...still, the monitor cant be switched on...(cpu is fine in its condition...everything can work...)
therefore i confirmed that....shit, after 8 years my monitor finally ceases its service.therefore i plan to buy a new monitor TODAY...even i draw out the money d...planning to go with Sam to one-stop summore...but before i am going to have my lunch, i syiok syiok on the computer AND OMFG THE MONITOR WORKS AGAIN!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE SHIT......!!!! THIS IS TOTALLY A SHOCK TO ME!!!! IMPOSSIBLE RIGHT???
Guys, tell me sth.....is there a possibility that my monitor saved up an amount of money and bought an aegis of immortal (an item to reincarnate heroes in DOTA) while i played dota without me knowing it????? (i lost 4000 once when i played with AI...strangely hoh!!!!!!!!!!!!)
MY GOD........NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
Judge for me pls????
last night (monday night) i was updating my blog and chatting suddenly my monitor screen blacked out and nvr on again.....i frantically switched off the whole computer and then on it again.....still cannot!!! then i pulled out the monitor data plug from my cpu and try again....CANNOT!
Frustrated, i then switch power plug to another power source to ascertain whether the power source supplying electricity to my monitor could be down or sth....STILL CANNOT
Not willing to give up, i rest the cpu (surely it is not cpu problem...coz the data signal is still on and i can still hear the Beatles singing in my speakers)...and repeated the process mentioned above after every consequent hour till 4 am in the morning...still, the monitor cant be switched on...(cpu is fine in its condition...everything can work...)
therefore i confirmed that....shit, after 8 years my monitor finally ceases its service.therefore i plan to buy a new monitor TODAY...even i draw out the money d...planning to go with Sam to one-stop summore...but before i am going to have my lunch, i syiok syiok on the computer AND OMFG THE MONITOR WORKS AGAIN!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE SHIT......!!!! THIS IS TOTALLY A SHOCK TO ME!!!! IMPOSSIBLE RIGHT???
Guys, tell me sth.....is there a possibility that my monitor saved up an amount of money and bought an aegis of immortal (an item to reincarnate heroes in DOTA) while i played dota without me knowing it????? (i lost 4000 once when i played with AI...strangely hoh!!!!!!!!!!!!)
MY GOD........NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
Judge for me pls????
Monday, April 24, 2006
A call....??
Guys this is getting more keng......
Remember that i promise u guys to update bout the HK uni stuffs? well here it is...after HKIE told me bout they will reaccredit it on late october, i send them another e-mail again, asking them 'what is the chance of that course being reaccredited in late october?' and i told them about my due date on 2nd May to reply HKUST...
I tot there would be no reply...but surprisingly on monday (today) one of the admin of HKIE asked me for my contact number becoz he/she wanna call me on this wednesday to discuss about this matter...*sweat*
It's getting more and more siao...but i think since it's concerning my future, even i have to strip for porn website i will go for it oso....even the admin wan me to do gay pose oso nvm lar...let it be.....(u guys pray for my virginity on wednesday pls...coz phone sex might occur anytime)
I m ready to sacrifice my first time.......COME!!!!!!
(dun cry for me guys!!!!!!I know u all love me!!!!!)
Remember that i promise u guys to update bout the HK uni stuffs? well here it is...after HKIE told me bout they will reaccredit it on late october, i send them another e-mail again, asking them 'what is the chance of that course being reaccredited in late october?' and i told them about my due date on 2nd May to reply HKUST...
I tot there would be no reply...but surprisingly on monday (today) one of the admin of HKIE asked me for my contact number becoz he/she wanna call me on this wednesday to discuss about this matter...*sweat*
It's getting more and more siao...but i think since it's concerning my future, even i have to strip for porn website i will go for it oso....even the admin wan me to do gay pose oso nvm lar...let it be.....(u guys pray for my virginity on wednesday pls...coz phone sex might occur anytime)
I m ready to sacrifice my first time.......COME!!!!!!
(dun cry for me guys!!!!!!I know u all love me!!!!!)
Saturday, April 22, 2006
Rainy Days + the Wish to Buy a Camera…
These few days it’s raining in penang…..*sigh*, I couldn’t even go to jogging…so everytime I look down on my belly I always think of Ah Yap…therefore today I m kinda happy coz it’s finally sunny again (actually, cloudy) and I could go for a jog nanti…15 mins later though.
When I look back on those photos Bird Dan and others took, I thought: shit, without camera I cant even record my own life….i think it’s time for me to buy one….money is still the problem but I think I can ‘work’ my way to it….maybe will try sum part time job to increase my income.
Those who have any good intro bout good digital camera pls tell me ya…I shud have a vague idea on how much is the budget that I shud aim for….
When I look back on those photos Bird Dan and others took, I thought: shit, without camera I cant even record my own life….i think it’s time for me to buy one….money is still the problem but I think I can ‘work’ my way to it….maybe will try sum part time job to increase my income.
Those who have any good intro bout good digital camera pls tell me ya…I shud have a vague idea on how much is the budget that I shud aim for….
Friday, April 21, 2006
Memoirs Of A Birdsha (Part III) - The Crazy Photoes
WARNING : THIS POST IS 18 SX AND SHUD BE KEPT AWAY FROM CHILDREN UNDER 18 AT ALL COST.
Chin gy.....i hesitate for a very long time but finally i think i will reveal these.....er......really crazy photoes i took during the first Langkawi trip...
That time we were swimming in the resort's swimming pool at around 3 or 4 in the morning after siaoing for a whole day...and plan to siao again...(in the end a lot of us caught flu...)
At that time when we wanna go out of the pool, i used my towel to cover my body in order to 'resist' the 'damage' of the wind blowing on my already very 'thin' body. Then Bird Dan tot of taking pictures of us and i suddenly think of these crazy poses which made a lot of ppl vomit after they saw it....hiak hiak....u judge it lar...is it 'spit rice' enuff???
*sigh* very gai izzit??? haha i m so sexy
all of them said: cibai...u really hiao...i say no ar??? just a crazy pose anyway...hehehee
OKAY...ENUFF ABOUT IT...and if i make u guys vomit, hehe, i have achieved my priority. hiak hiak hiak hiak........
Chin gy.....i hesitate for a very long time but finally i think i will reveal these.....er......really crazy photoes i took during the first Langkawi trip...
That time we were swimming in the resort's swimming pool at around 3 or 4 in the morning after siaoing for a whole day...and plan to siao again...(in the end a lot of us caught flu...)
At that time when we wanna go out of the pool, i used my towel to cover my body in order to 'resist' the 'damage' of the wind blowing on my already very 'thin' body. Then Bird Dan tot of taking pictures of us and i suddenly think of these crazy poses which made a lot of ppl vomit after they saw it....hiak hiak....u judge it lar...is it 'spit rice' enuff???
*sigh* very gai izzit??? haha i m so sexy
all of them said: cibai...u really hiao...i say no ar??? just a crazy pose anyway...hehehee
OKAY...ENUFF ABOUT IT...and if i make u guys vomit, hehe, i have achieved my priority. hiak hiak hiak hiak........
Mendoukusai
Well, the e-mail from Hong Kong Institute of Engineers has reached me…and it says the review of accreditation will be updated in October….WAHLIEW…that is like, er, a very long time! How would I know if I were to study in HKUST and in October their review is not accredited?? This is indeed mendoukusai and I feel like stabbing any of the admin from HKIE who accredits engineering courses…baka……
I still feel that I wanna study in National University of Singapore…*sigh*…will look into this problem in a few days time….coz I think that if I go HK to study an unrecognized degree and can still further my master in other uni which is recognized, then it wont be problem if I go HK to study
Still still, will keep on pondering it.
Thursday, April 20, 2006
The Trend of Omegatrend
Aih…I guess lately most of the frens in my circle are into the trend of Omegatrend…dreaming to earn more to become millionaire one day…well, I am not birdy or sth, but if one could become a millionaire by doing direct selling, there would be hundreds of thousands of millionaires around us liao. But no matter what the fever of Omegatrend is still burning…..and it’s burning with a heat so intense that it does not seem that it would stop. (dan u knew it…haha)
One advice to those who wanna ‘invest’ their time in omegatrend…dun take it too seriously that u can be a millionaire by doing that business…concentrate ur time on current stuffs first (such as education, self-improvement) becoz:
1) Omegatrend works on the principle of services. Our circle is still within the age range of 19 to 22, and how many of us are now into earning our own money and using most of the services? (services such as Courts Mammoth, ING insurance, credit cards and stuffs…)
2) The core concept of maintaining this business is really…er…mendoukusai…becoz the points u earn every month will be converted to money and u hafta work all over again the next month…which means u hafta put in A LOT OF EFFORT to support ur downline and ur own line in order to maintain ur monthly earning stabile.
3) The same with the first reason….but in another point of looking at it…to earn the points, u need ppl(
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
On the Verge of Uncertain Future
Guys, I was offered the scholarship in civil engineering by Hong Kong University of Science & Technology…I know some of u might say that I m lucky but actually I m not…becoz this offer causes me immense confusion which torments me these few days.
First, I found out HKUST’s 3 years course is not recognized by
Aih…I think I would choose
I decide to wait for the news from
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
Memoirs Of A Birdsha (Part II) - The Essay
When applying for ntu scholarship (which i dun get...) there was a request for the applicants to submit an essay on a title "write an essay about a person who influences u the most and why"
I was so siao that i wrote this 'creative' and 'birdy' essay and seriously want to submit it....until in the end kena stopped by all my gang...dan lar...tst lar...all say this essay is good but it will be...er...not suitable to become a scholarship essay.........
well, u guys judge it lar....i still think it's good ;-)
I was so siao that i wrote this 'creative' and 'birdy' essay and seriously want to submit it....until in the end kena stopped by all my gang...dan lar...tst lar...all say this essay is good but it will be...er...not suitable to become a scholarship essay.........
well, u guys judge it lar....i still think it's good ;-)
When I first laid my lips on his, even I wondered if I could be gay. Everyone around us was staring unbelievably at us, all stunned in consternation. The crowd in the restaurant didn’t even utter anything soft, and I was almost firmly sure that I had invented the technology of stopping time.
Yet I did not regret what I had done, even up till today, kissing the person that has influenced me that much mouth to mouth. After the kiss, he still kept that friendly smile of his, and still looking good now in his characteristic white suit and black bow tie. Everything between us both remains normal, believe me.
The decision to kiss him came after I had endured all those hardships by holding onto the values of his life: determination and perseverance. At the age of 66, he set out on a journey around
Yes, Harland Sanders, better known as the founder of KFC, is the person that influences me the most. His remarkable life teaches me the lesson that it’s never too late to achieve my dreams, and never to give up. Therefore when I saw him sitting peacefully and smiling friendly in the KFC restaurant, I wanted to thank him for what he brought to my life.
Nothing serves better than a kiss, right? Thank you, Harland Sanders!
Haih...
Sorry to those ppl who are not bloggers and cannot give comments due to my settings….now change d lar….i newbie mar…let me go pls…(u know who u are :-P)
Guys u can see I m adding more features to my sidebar….well…I’ll keep the contents I m currently working on a secret.Hehe.
Btw sth really troublesome happened…my friendster account deleted all my testimonials!!!! SHIT….how in hell would that happen? Anyone knows how to recover them and what made them disappear right beneath my eyes???
Monday, April 17, 2006
Memoirs Of A Birdsha (Part I)
Last time when we all (dan, tst, sam, yst, koja, theam and I) went to Leisure Cove for LAN party (all of us who have comps bring all our comps there), sth really shit happened.
The LAN party was held for two days one night….so we had to actually stay there for one night. Because I thought that others will bring toothpaste there so I think it wont hurt if I dun bring mine……hiak hiak hiak…..coz I can borrow mar…..easy….
Then the worst nightmare came……after madding around till 2 sth in the morning, sum of us already wanna go to sleep…..so I wanna brush my teeth, there I mar go borrow toothpaste from my best pal that Bird Dan….
He said: Ok, it’s in the plastic bag in the washroom.
I said: thanks pal.
Then I went into the washroom, bringing my toothbrush, and found that plastic bag. I searched the plastic bag without any effort and found a toothpaste. I squeezed it on my toothbrush and I found out that the color is light brown. I thought: wow, that’s a new kinda toothpaste I never seen before…….NICE…
The process of brushing the teeth commences!!! I feel weird once I tasted the toothpaste…..it’s like the smell of grease…..yeah grease….u know u guys pernah soldered sth in KH lab last time during form 3 right? (soldering = mematri) there’s a kind of grease which is used to make the soldering process smoother…….ya……I m right…..that kinda grease smell……I thought: SHIT.erm….maybe it’s sum kinda herbs ingredients that is meant to make ur teeth stronger??
But after brushing my teeth for more than a minute I really feel like vomiting. This couldn’t possibly be a toothpaste!!!
I rushed out of the washroom, bringing the toothpaste, and asked Bird Dan: what the shit is in this toothpaste?? Is it expired??
Bird Dan went almost dumbstruck, then burst in laughters: THAT’S MY PIMPLE CREAM!!!!
THEN I WENT WAHLIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!NOOOOOOOOO…………!!!!!!!!!SHIT I BRUSHED MY TEETH WITH PIMPLE CREAM FOR MORE THAN ONE MINUTE!!!!!
The smell of grease grew stronger and stronger. I was so PISSED OFF becoz the tooth paste Bird Dan brought is of the size of
I went totally frantic and used 100 Plus to wash my mouth for over four to five times….even the biscuits, drinks and everything tasted like grease no matter how many times I washed my mouth.
SUI AR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SUI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SUI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!1
I was just sui after all!!!!!!!!!! DAMN IT!!!!
Shitty it is guys...the chatterbox problem is bugging me.....margin problem!!! but nvm leave it be until i find the solution lar......mendoukusai!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Btw yesterday night discussed with WZ about new stuffs to add into my sidebar......very funny indeed....u guys mate ya..........surely will let u guys laugh till heads fall off <--- Nearly Headless Nick?
I went to register new driving license today (ui seh....me finally a non-P driver hiak hiak), and what made it really funny is, the cashier DIN even notice that it's a bird who was getting the license!!!!! MUAHAHAHAHA! he din even look at me.....everyone in the room was dumbstruck, looking at a bird which walked here and there registering for driving license
And also due to air boundaries and suicide-attack bird shit squard terrorist problem, i hafta go and renew my passport in order to validate my personal details while entering other countries' skies......HAIH....that's is shit....i will get my passport by tmr.....it costs RM300!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
will blog again tonite...more exciting stuffs yet to come.......
Btw yesterday night discussed with WZ about new stuffs to add into my sidebar......very funny indeed....u guys mate ya..........surely will let u guys laugh till heads fall off <--- Nearly Headless Nick?
I went to register new driving license today (ui seh....me finally a non-P driver hiak hiak), and what made it really funny is, the cashier DIN even notice that it's a bird who was getting the license!!!!! MUAHAHAHAHA! he din even look at me.....everyone in the room was dumbstruck, looking at a bird which walked here and there registering for driving license
And also due to air boundaries and suicide-attack bird shit squard terrorist problem, i hafta go and renew my passport in order to validate my personal details while entering other countries' skies......HAIH....that's is shit....i will get my passport by tmr.....it costs RM300!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
will blog again tonite...more exciting stuffs yet to come.......
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