以前的世界我們都不知道是什麽樣子。
就像以前的生物，以前的世界，以前的文明；就算孕育我們的祖先的中國，以前的話語也無人知曉。我們隨波逐流，我們在時間里無窮無盡的河流，勉強地抓住了不知道是不久之前的，還是遠古的文化的稻穗。
當 時間慢慢過去，沉淀的心情還有世故的變化，都在一種自己無法了解和捕捉的意識空間里醞釀著。毗鄰自己的一片灌木的樣子似乎沒什麽大變化，可是我的心境似乎 變了。呼吸的節奏變了。很多故事被敘述的時候，往往都有那么的一段：變不回去了；或者是：太久遠了，以前的仿佛是影子，似有似無。
可是好像那種感覺還在吧。深深抑鬱著的痛楚、遠處來自金黃色草原的輕鬆低吟、祖先們在北方遊牧的時候吃過的狼食、埋在危機反射裡的獸性。我們都在不知不覺中生活在一堆自遠古傳承下來而藏在基因裡的信息中。我們不斷地在發掘。
共存，真的是不可能的嗎？
我們和大自然，不可共存嗎？其實，把範圍縮小一些，那西方世界和東方世界呢？大家能共存嗎？基督教和回教，大家能共存嗎？自由主義和共產主義，不能共存嗎？
再把範圍縮到最小，到了今天，似乎已慢慢演變到男人和女人都難以共存了。我們的世界，真的就在慢慢地沉入腐海裡了嗎？號稱文明者，號稱高智慧動物的我們，已經從以前的團結走到今天的逐漸散落。我們的世界，變成了什麽樣子呢？
最近閱讀了Zi Yun的blog (大家可以在右欄裡鍵連)，附帶閱讀了令她憤怒的那篇文章，我不禁有一種深深的悲痛。我不由的沉思。我的心裡似乎一直都有一個答案漂游著。一種朦朧的感覺，情景，概念。
在 令到Zi Yun憤怒的文章里，我看到了作家的一種少年方剛的氣憤。我仿佛看到了以前的我，有些許惆悵起來。以前的我，難道不是對愛情充滿著無數的，數不盡的原則還 有不可扭曲的論述？那種不可一世的態度，那種鄙視人間的精神，那種恨不得手中掌有生死之權的咒語，難道不是以前的我的寫照？當自己把自己埋藏在書堆裡，閱 讀了無數作家的滔滔大論，變得似乎些許驕恃起來了，好像自己擁有了男人的弱點，抑或是女人的強處，抑或是人類的醜陋，抑或是扭曲事實的手段，還有無數的抑 或。是無數的，因為雖然主心思想不會改變，但是充斥著生活的原則時不時的在變化著。
今天的我，有一個結論。那種態度是不健康的，是一種會反噬的態度。反噬的時候，那種痛苦入骨的程度似乎不比令狐沖忍受‘吸星大法’的反噬少，因為這種反噬是潛意識的，當自己發現的時候，往往就是末期的時候，它像癌症一樣，隱藏著。
我走入歧途過。我曾在一片充滿虛假的原則架構里生活過。我曾經嘗試背叛以前的自己。大家敢問自己，難道沒有那一個充滿殺機的時候嗎？
我 在尋找，到底這種腐敗的思想，怎么連社會所謂的受過教育的我們也會蒙蔽自己的眼睛？當人類們都在說西藏的人權問題的時候，就沒有人見到背後的陰謀？在中國 當局盡力解釋西藏的自由的時候，難道他們沒有看到自己的殘暴？事情都有兩面，事情也可能不止兩面。我們沒有權利去述說西藏是否應該獨立，抑或是美國的自由 主義是最崇高的。我只能說，我們人類應該做的是，不斷的尋找一個和平的共處方案。利益可能受到迫害，那就繼續談下去。任何一種突變的形式都會令到人民受到 大損失。當初蘇聯的瓦解，在今天禍亂重重的俄羅斯里，我們看到了什麽？在當初美國政府無情的暗殺美國境里的共產黨主義者，那我們看到了什麽？自由主義倡導 的人人自由，那相信共產主義就是錯，就不可以？還得趕盡殺絕？
我衷心的勸一勸這位仁兄，有時候試著和平解決吧。
我不排斥 自己有偏激的一面。在外邊的世界逗留了這么久，和無數不同的國度的人們交談過，交心過。大夥兒坐下來一起過冬，吃酒，談著不同國度里不同的文化，大家也難 免爭吵，對一種主意，一種想法，一種倡導，十個人，有的想法不下二十個吧。可是我可以斷定，我們都是愉快的。大家都覺得大家的眼界開闊了。我因為了解了西 方人的放蕩不羈而覺得有一種遼闊的感覺慢慢的滋長在自己的生命中；西方人何嘗不是驚嘆于東方人的自律還有勤勞和執著？我們大家口頭上都是喋喋不休的，可是 心底下都不由得有一絲絲的動心。
可以說，從此以後，我的人生漫漫的改變了。
那愛情呢？Zi Yun和那位仁兄都似乎不認同男人的背叛還有女人們的從容，甚至媽媽的慫恿。一些詛咒的言語也因此出現了。這，真的是事情的全面嗎？
我本人認為香港是一個文化沙漠。哈哈，可是這不是主題。我生活的大學里，可是很多令我驚訝的世界。這裡收攬了世界各地的人才，這裡，也有著無數的情侶因為際遇而撞擊出來的火花。
我 見到了一對香港情侶，天天生活在一起，可是他們都沒想過結婚，也認為本身對生活的追求是獨立的，也沒去想過承諾，也沒想過未來。他們就是那么的生活在一 起；我見到過一對來自西方國家和另一個來自中東國家的情侶。他們摒棄自己的宗教文化背景生活在一起，他們互相包涵，也不提之間的文化差異，還有宗教要求。 他們也天天生活在一起，他們也沒想過未來，沒想過結婚；我見到過一對來自中國的情侶。他們兩個來自不同的省份，說著不同的方言，卻因為學術環境還有共同的 普通話而認識，結交，生活在一起。他們對彼此有山盟海誓，有承諾，也希望自己能和彼此終老。他們堅定，他們奮鬥；我也見過來自不同國度的情侶，也見過遠距 離戀愛的情侶。每個人都來自不同的國度，擁有不同的語言，思想，甚至不同的時間。
我見到了很多驚人的事實，我見到了很多對愛情不同的看 法，我見到了很多不同的文化的衝擊和緩和。在一段愛情里，成分太多，沒有人能保證什麽。我本人對事業很執著，對愛情相對的也不怎么介意了。有的人對愛情執 著，不允許背叛。我也見到了有些人出軌了，到最後兩人和好了，也一起終老的情侶和我談起了以前的事故。
我在想，人類，是何其的奇妙和美 麗。我們都擁有著億萬個不同的想法。不說其他人，就說說自己吧。誰敢說自己從以前到現在的想法是一致的？我們都生活在一條河裡，一條被風御著的河流。我們 周圍的光景有時一樣，有時卻是截然的不同。我們的前方擁有著不同的礁石，不知明的轉彎。我們也遇到無數的分岔路。我們遇到不同的人，不同的文化，不同的想 法，甚至是不同的生物。我們聚合，我們分散。
我遇到無數不同語言的人。我遇到無數思想截然廻異的人。
我只能說，人，抑或是動物，大家不應該忘記植物。植物們都有一種奇異的力量。它們不正面交鋒，它們都在慢慢的融合，如果融合不了，就共存。它們的生命最脆弱，可是它們是大自然，還有一切生命的泉源。它們可以以一千年，一萬年，一億年的時間來融合彼此的差異。
難道我們人類注定是滅絕的動物？我們慢慢的忘記了共存的意義。我們也慢慢的忘記為什麽當初人類團結的原因。我們因為擁有炮彈而覺得自己強大，擁有詛咒的力量而覺得自己是崇高的，沒錯的。因為自己擁有了一些操縱自然的力量而把自己當作神。
我 們，何嘗不是最悲哀的？連男人和女人都在戰爭的時候，當我們國度里的種族互相鄙視，互相殘殺，互相吞是彼此的時候，我不禁的在想，我們的希望在哪裡？我們 的下一餐飯，是不是虛假的，沒有意義的？是不是在什麽地方有人默默的死了而把怨恨拋給世人？是不是有人在某個地方壯烈的死了，而認為自己的無比崇高是永遠 正確的？
我很傷感。
我的朋友們，和我一起在遠離自己的家鄉，遠離自己祖先的地方在流浪，遠離自己熟悉的文化和語言在打 拼，奔走，漂泊的朋友們。。。我們，是在以前自己的社會里被人稱為精英的人物。我們不應該放棄在人世間還存在的情理。我們不應該認為共存是不可能的；我們 不應該因為一些自己認為崇高的原則還有一些宗教的釋義而奪取另一個人，甚至另一種生物的生命。我相信，在這個時候，大家都在努力地為世界做一些事情。我相 信，我們不應該以詛咒，還有殺戮為出發點。在這個時候，我們應該為共存的空間奮鬥下去。
我不知道我們之間任何一個人的明天是怎么樣的。可 是就算有一個人走入了歧途還有黑暗之中，我希望你能夠相信你可以把他帶出來，而不是詛咒他，殺死他。如果你認為這個人的思想不正確，那第一件事是溝通。真 的不能共存嗎？如果對方是真的在黑暗的那一方，我求你，不要放棄他。不要詛咒他。要盡力的幫助他，因為你可能就是那唯一一個可以救他的人，也可能是唯一一 個看到他的錯誤，他的悲痛的人。
我們都有害怕的那一面，都有怕被傷害的那一面。可是，難道東西都不是共存的嗎？請想想，因為有了害怕，所以我們才知道如何勇敢起來。因為有了黑暗，所以我們知道光明的好處。 如果，如果。。。如果我們的世界還有社會處於一種沒有毒品，沒有戰爭，沒有乞丐，沒有淪落人士，沒有搶劫，強奸，沒有任何一切罪犯的國度里，我無法想象， 那個時候，如果我們向彼此說起‘罪’這一個字的時候，大家都無法明白的搖起頭來的那種情形是多么的悲哀。如果世界里的情侶沒有一個背叛，沒有一個出軌事 件，我相信很多人會慢慢的對愛情這一個觀念失去新鮮感，甚至不會珍惜自己的伴侶。難道，你們不是因為你們認為你們遇到了值得讓你犧牲的另一半而開心嗎？就 是因為愛情的世界里充滿著背叛，所以當我們找到對的人，對的感覺還有忠誠的另一半，我們都會很感謝上天，很珍惜自己的愛人。
罪惡和我們所謂的‘正道’，是共存的。沒有彼此，彼此都生存不了。
我們，都是風的孩子。在風的輕撫，風的漩渦里，我們見到了暴風雨，見到了黑暗，也見到了遼闊的草原，常綠的山崖。風的孩子們，都見到了共存的重要性，共存的必然性。
我們漂泊，我們奮鬥，我們相信。爲了長吹的風，還有持恒的共存，讓我們都飛翔起來。
Sunday, August 03, 2008
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
City of Devils V - The Awakening
Man once sang to me
Look at you saving the world on your own
And I wonder how things gonna be
As the time here it passes so slow
The sad guitar riffs go on and on. The streets are crowded with lost hope and misdirection.
I am looking away no more as the angry devils arch over the innocence. I do not seek to throw myself into flames, only that I seek the fire that burns me down when you fall into one and fight me.
Fight me, fight me harsh and fight me real.
Fight me true and with all my will, I will purge you.
Sword unsheathed, sorrows lamented and eyes fixed. The glare is of all but fear.
I will march, when the first distant war cry sounds over the battlefield. And charge forward I shall, in an absolute silent yet confident manner, like a pack of wolves sweeping down from the top of the ancient mogul snow mountains.
Look at you saving the world on your own
And I wonder how things gonna be
As the time here it passes so slow
The sad guitar riffs go on and on. The streets are crowded with lost hope and misdirection.
I am looking away no more as the angry devils arch over the innocence. I do not seek to throw myself into flames, only that I seek the fire that burns me down when you fall into one and fight me.
Fight me, fight me harsh and fight me real.
Fight me true and with all my will, I will purge you.
Sword unsheathed, sorrows lamented and eyes fixed. The glare is of all but fear.
I will march, when the first distant war cry sounds over the battlefield. And charge forward I shall, in an absolute silent yet confident manner, like a pack of wolves sweeping down from the top of the ancient mogul snow mountains.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Change
Since when did we forget that the simplest words are the most understandable, and the most comprehensible? Since when are we engulfed by the angry waves of terminology, overwhelming torrents of ------ we are unable to stand our ground by allowing more money spent on the oil prices which have fallen a fourth straight session as fears lingered that record prices are forcing consumers to cut consumption-like ------ words spelt.
We cannot. Because we don't understand a lot of the words you are using. You use ambiguous words, you use political terms which require us to actually flip through the dictionary (dictionaries?) to actually comprehend what you have on your mind. You deceive us with your words, and your words are tossed all around, they are heard everywhere, but nobody cares. The university educated locals don't care because most of them might not even know a shit of what you are bragging about. They only need your money. Local university educated Chinese and Indians are listening, and everytime they listen, they shake their heads, and their hopes lost. We, those who are away from the country, we listen, and we comment. But everytime before our keyboards or pens start to scribble, we think of the three mighty letters: ISA.
Malaysia is not wrong. Malaysian government is not wrong. It's the leaders, the political leaders who we vote for, who we actually vote, and with each vote we think that they will do something for us, because, supposingly, they can!
On the way towards their own pockets and pride, they lost themselves. But we don't care. But you guys fucking make the whole country lost. Nationwide, everybody is scared. We are all afraid, we fear what might come next. We fear one of our future daughters might be raped and killed by one of our leaders, who we actually vote for. We fear that our kids will be forced to succumb under the one and only legitimate religion in the country, which the government legalize for the only wish to assimilate.
We cannot do a thing. Or rather, we fucking won't do anything for a nation that forsakes us.
Today, even a person who always happen to just take the leaders' words for nothing is crying out loud here in Hong Kong. Most of us are in a state of unrest now. The emotions stir as the doom of our own lands seem not far off.
Just watched 3 episodes of 'Change', the latest japanese drama by Takuya Kimura which is based a touching and moving storyline revolving about a primary school teacher being 'accidentally' pushed into the political waves and soon ascend to the chair of Prime Minister. Being an innocent person, he searches his own soul for the real purpose of being a politician. He said he dunno all the terms the politicians use, but he knows that he at least knew something all along: he is on the same line with his people.
When will Malaysians have such a leader? My heart tells me: unlikely to be in the near future. Well, if I gonna make a wish for Malaysia now, I will say this: Anwar, try to change things but you please don't fucking mess things up. You can bring a 180 degrees change to Malaysian politics, but don't just tell us your promises. Do them. And be fair to the minorities.
A nation that does not respect minorities is a nation doomed to go downhill. Look at Vietnam, Thailand, Indonesia, Philippines...when we see their economies grow, we can't stop wondering: what the fuck is wrong with our government? What the fuck are they doing?
The fuck is, do they even know? All Malaysians need a change. A change larger than the magnitude of a 10 Richter's scale earthquake.
We cannot. Because we don't understand a lot of the words you are using. You use ambiguous words, you use political terms which require us to actually flip through the dictionary (dictionaries?) to actually comprehend what you have on your mind. You deceive us with your words, and your words are tossed all around, they are heard everywhere, but nobody cares. The university educated locals don't care because most of them might not even know a shit of what you are bragging about. They only need your money. Local university educated Chinese and Indians are listening, and everytime they listen, they shake their heads, and their hopes lost. We, those who are away from the country, we listen, and we comment. But everytime before our keyboards or pens start to scribble, we think of the three mighty letters: ISA.
Malaysia is not wrong. Malaysian government is not wrong. It's the leaders, the political leaders who we vote for, who we actually vote, and with each vote we think that they will do something for us, because, supposingly, they can!
On the way towards their own pockets and pride, they lost themselves. But we don't care. But you guys fucking make the whole country lost. Nationwide, everybody is scared. We are all afraid, we fear what might come next. We fear one of our future daughters might be raped and killed by one of our leaders, who we actually vote for. We fear that our kids will be forced to succumb under the one and only legitimate religion in the country, which the government legalize for the only wish to assimilate.
We cannot do a thing. Or rather, we fucking won't do anything for a nation that forsakes us.
Today, even a person who always happen to just take the leaders' words for nothing is crying out loud here in Hong Kong. Most of us are in a state of unrest now. The emotions stir as the doom of our own lands seem not far off.
Just watched 3 episodes of 'Change', the latest japanese drama by Takuya Kimura which is based a touching and moving storyline revolving about a primary school teacher being 'accidentally' pushed into the political waves and soon ascend to the chair of Prime Minister. Being an innocent person, he searches his own soul for the real purpose of being a politician. He said he dunno all the terms the politicians use, but he knows that he at least knew something all along: he is on the same line with his people.
When will Malaysians have such a leader? My heart tells me: unlikely to be in the near future. Well, if I gonna make a wish for Malaysia now, I will say this: Anwar, try to change things but you please don't fucking mess things up. You can bring a 180 degrees change to Malaysian politics, but don't just tell us your promises. Do them. And be fair to the minorities.
A nation that does not respect minorities is a nation doomed to go downhill. Look at Vietnam, Thailand, Indonesia, Philippines...when we see their economies grow, we can't stop wondering: what the fuck is wrong with our government? What the fuck are they doing?
The fuck is, do they even know? All Malaysians need a change. A change larger than the magnitude of a 10 Richter's scale earthquake.
Thursday, July 03, 2008
Wei Zhi the Legend
You made every one of us smile, with that lame but funny jokes of yours.
You are a goalseeker, though you lose your strength at times, you never lost sight of what you are going to achieve ultimately.
You bring us wonders, instilling hopes and strength and motivation when your best friends need them the most.
Cheers to you, my best friend, Wei Zhi. Today, you mark the 22nd year of your life dedicated to helping your friends and creating a better community. Keep up the effort, dude.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CRABSTICK!!
Before you make your wish, let me make mine for you first, hehe. Kinda stealing the limelight, eh? Haha. Well well well, the list goes:
1) Hack the heck!
You are a goalseeker, though you lose your strength at times, you never lost sight of what you are going to achieve ultimately.
You bring us wonders, instilling hopes and strength and motivation when your best friends need them the most.
Cheers to you, my best friend, Wei Zhi. Today, you mark the 22nd year of your life dedicated to helping your friends and creating a better community. Keep up the effort, dude.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CRABSTICK!!
Before you make your wish, let me make mine for you first, hehe. Kinda stealing the limelight, eh? Haha. Well well well, the list goes:
1) Hack the heck!
- Yes you definitely need this shit. Trust me. Like what I told you over and over again, you have the POTENTIAL. Just fucking believe in yourself man. You can be a real unbeatable man when you work your arse up to your shoulders. Just don't get it too high into your head. ;-)
2) Wear your tyre off!
- Well it actually mean: get healthy by exercising more. Ya ya ya...I know I don't have the right to comment you on this but I just can't help noticing you crab tyre is always three sizes bigger than mine. Work your bones, man! You need the fitness to be an engineer who engineers the world.
3) Hit the bull's eye
- Yeap. Get outgoing. Get aggresive. Get adventurous and tackle her. You can do it dude. I am waiting to see you holding a girl's hand dearly for a long long time d you know haha. But...ahem! Don't be a 重色輕友 guy like who you were during the wxyz period or like me lol. Bad examples. Bad, bad, bad.
Haha three wishes are just enough for you dude. I will indeed give you my best wishes on everything. And ya, thanks so much. I never will forget that you ran to your uni lab from your house just to talk to your friend who fell into deep hell. I can never be so thankful in my whole life. I always remember the tears that stay in my eyes that day.
You are the best thing in each and every one of your best friends' lives. So, do your best dude!
Happy 22nd Birthday! Be a man and keep up the effort! ^^
You are the best thing in each and every one of your best friends' lives. So, do your best dude!
Happy 22nd Birthday! Be a man and keep up the effort! ^^
Sunday, June 22, 2008
珮甄
終於明白了，病態的要求你不要分手會讓自己更受傷。所以決定不說了。我們的確也有很多不相襯的地方。我以前想過要分手，到了真的分手的這一刻，我突然很傷感很崩潰。可能習慣了你的存在。當你在我的心中失去了以前的那個稱呼的時候，我也突然失去了重量。
我不會決定什麽。不會像你一樣丟掉我們的東西。我會惦記你。你的味道，你的頭髮，你的可愛笑容。
聽著傷心的歌，想著以後自己在遠走高飛的日子，突然覺得世界只剩下自己。
一直以來自己都是一隻獨狼，天涯海角任自己逛。原來自己的心裡一直都有你在。一直我都想帶著你來著。
以後的日子就做以後打算吧。我是一個流浪人。一直流浪，一直一直，直到天涯海角。也許有一天在我突然想起你的時候我才是已經忘了你吧，可是我沒有忘記，你忘了還我我的心。這是一種刻骨銘心的痛。永遠永遠。
永遠不會遏止。
我一直嘗試讓自己的肉體痛來忘記心中的疼。一天又一天，一天又一天，一天又一天。
直到哪一天飛機降落在一個陌生的所在。
我不會決定什麽。不會像你一樣丟掉我們的東西。我會惦記你。你的味道，你的頭髮，你的可愛笑容。
聽著傷心的歌，想著以後自己在遠走高飛的日子，突然覺得世界只剩下自己。
一直以來自己都是一隻獨狼，天涯海角任自己逛。原來自己的心裡一直都有你在。一直我都想帶著你來著。
以後的日子就做以後打算吧。我是一個流浪人。一直流浪，一直一直，直到天涯海角。也許有一天在我突然想起你的時候我才是已經忘了你吧，可是我沒有忘記，你忘了還我我的心。這是一種刻骨銘心的痛。永遠永遠。
永遠不會遏止。
我一直嘗試讓自己的肉體痛來忘記心中的疼。一天又一天，一天又一天，一天又一天。
直到哪一天飛機降落在一個陌生的所在。
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Battling Pain
Who will prevail??? Me or you???
Lemme tell u something, I basked in the golden fire during my reincarnation in 2004, having endured the most immense heat of my whole life. Since then I know nothing of a combat that will wear me off.
But you are becoming the one who can actually challenge me to my death. Suddenly I feel that I am in a situation similar to Jiraiya. I am fighting you, Pain, who has six different bodies.
May Amaterasu be with me. This will be the toughest war ever. I will never give up, even when I am drawing my last breath I will still make sure my blade inches towards your throat. You may think that I am out of my mind. You may think that I am just another waste that go against you.
But one thing is for sure, no matter what is the outcome, I win, because I have surpassed myself. I have slaughtered four of you today. I will make damn sure I will see the other two of you perish in front of me by Saturday. Mind my words. You have your warning.
Lemme tell u something, I basked in the golden fire during my reincarnation in 2004, having endured the most immense heat of my whole life. Since then I know nothing of a combat that will wear me off.
But you are becoming the one who can actually challenge me to my death. Suddenly I feel that I am in a situation similar to Jiraiya. I am fighting you, Pain, who has six different bodies.
May Amaterasu be with me. This will be the toughest war ever. I will never give up, even when I am drawing my last breath I will still make sure my blade inches towards your throat. You may think that I am out of my mind. You may think that I am just another waste that go against you.
But one thing is for sure, no matter what is the outcome, I win, because I have surpassed myself. I have slaughtered four of you today. I will make damn sure I will see the other two of you perish in front of me by Saturday. Mind my words. You have your warning.
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Sharingan Upgraded
Yes, you are not reading wrongly. Weeks after I activated my Sharingan sight, I finally come to realize something is wrong with my sharingan.
Not really that something is wrong. But rather something is burning.
And here it comes, the art of Amaterasu. A black flame which will engulf the enemy till he is burnt to death, just by a glance of the eyes.
But it strains me badly. After I use it I will be rendered physically devastated. How to obtain this art of the eye? Easy. Sleep only like 2 hours per day and fight your battle through endless sleepless nights. When the sky falls dark on you, you will see the dawn of Amaterasu.
Not really that something is wrong. But rather something is burning.
And here it comes, the art of Amaterasu. A black flame which will engulf the enemy till he is burnt to death, just by a glance of the eyes.
But it strains me badly. After I use it I will be rendered physically devastated. How to obtain this art of the eye? Easy. Sleep only like 2 hours per day and fight your battle through endless sleepless nights. When the sky falls dark on you, you will see the dawn of Amaterasu.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Overhaul
Full concentration required.
Gonna get over those subjects in plain few days. Assignments are pretty much done.
Been a long, long time since I work my bones. And read too. Aiks. Summer gonna be the only way out solution for these.
Exams haven't started but the mind is already on what to do in summer. I should stop dreaming. GOGOGO!
Gonna get over those subjects in plain few days. Assignments are pretty much done.
Been a long, long time since I work my bones. And read too. Aiks. Summer gonna be the only way out solution for these.
Exams haven't started but the mind is already on what to do in summer. I should stop dreaming. GOGOGO!
Sunday, May 18, 2008
心寒
自己雖然不喜歡廣東話與廣東人，這裡還是想以廣東話操這位無情的台灣人一句：仆街！屌你老母個西！蛋散！
這篇文章：“有話直說》中國地震，台灣熱乎什麽勁兒？”提出了什麽狗屁東西。。。說如果台灣人今天救了四川的人，以後可能今天所救的人會把台灣人給幹掉。。。這是何其怪異的道理呀？請問這位台灣人，還有那些推薦這篇文章的人們，你們的思維本身是不是出現了巨大的問題？
看得憤怒填膺的時候，也順便瀏覽了其他人的意見，見到了一位另一位台灣仁兄的文章（四川大地震還說風涼話，白目而冷血），覺得甚是有理：“你家鄰居失火了，反正他家存款有幾十億，房子又有保險，反正有燒不到你，所以不關你事？”。看了真是暢然啊。
大家同樣是漢族，我相信中國人也不會任意攻打台灣。想一想，你是中國中央的話，你會隨意向台灣發起戰爭嗎？對雙方不好又對自己大大失利的事情，中國不會做，況且都是自己同胞，福建湖南有著無數台灣人的祖鄉，自己打自己，笑死人了。
前幾天和老朋友談起中國，說起中國情操，他說了一句：“中國其實不把咱們海外華僑當作中國人啊。”， 讓我有無數的疑問。是不是我們祖輩離開了中國，血裡面流的不再是屬於華僑的血液了？為什麽當我們把自己當成華人時，卻認不到中國了？我相信我的老友不是其中一個。我們這班海外華人，馬來西亞的，新加坡的，泰國的，印尼的，美國的還有世界各地的，我們沒有自稱華人嗎？我們沒有用普通話抑或中國其中一個方言嗎？我們現在沒有親戚在中國嗎？
當然，活在當下我們是世界村民。我們應該對世界各地受災難所影響的人們伸出援手及關懷，可是畢竟很多時候我們做不到。本人認為，能向自己的同胞，同鄉，祖鄉及現在居住的國家的有需要人士伸出援手盡自己的一份力，已經是非常不簡單了。你們知道嗎，這么久以來，東南亞地區有發生華人大屠殺事件，中國都有偷偷派船隻來接走這些華人？五一三事件，中國有沒有扮演譴責的角色？暗地裡在泰國邊境也有派援，這些事情，馬來西亞政府不會告訴我們。馬來人不會告訴我們。牽涉的太廣，只有當事人才有消息。
老實說，真要這么舉證，我們才能夠去愛中國嗎？真的要刻意學習，我們才會愛中華文化嗎？我的華族同胞們，當我們自稱華族的時候，當我們在用著華語的時候，當我們在說著中華方言的時候，當我們在貢拜著中國道教的神明的時候，不要忘記我們的根。不要在我們被其他民族當成外族欺壓的時候才說，中國啊，幫我們說說話！不要在我們被其他民族欺壓的時候，以自己是華人的名義召集群眾，如果你平時把中國與華族看扁，不認同自己的根源與膚色。
是的，我討厭廣東文化及思想。可是，畢竟一百年以後連香港人也是在說著普通話了。我們都是華裔，都是屬於中華民族的。我們有責任肩負身為一個華人的基本態度及操行。我們有責任從一個人的角度去思考問題。
那些在台灣及其他地方推薦那篇文章的人們，你們最好不要再寫中文了。你們讓我覺得無比的噁心。你們不是華人，也不是台灣人。是的，我們上一代有國民黨及中共之戰，可是那時候何嘗不是各懷鬼胎？今天呢？大家面臨的是整個華族被威脅的命運，還要自搞內訌嗎？也想借此向某些香港居民發表一些意見：你們如果歧視中國，就別叫自己香港人。你們現在已經是在中國境內了。去到外面自稱香港人而厭惡中國人，這種行為太搞笑，太貽笑街坊了。
四川的人們需要我們。大家有錢出錢，有力出力。這裡我以一段視頻結尾。希望大家能盡己所能作出努力。中國加油！！！！！
這篇文章：“有話直說》中國地震，台灣熱乎什麽勁兒？”提出了什麽狗屁東西。。。說如果台灣人今天救了四川的人，以後可能今天所救的人會把台灣人給幹掉。。。這是何其怪異的道理呀？請問這位台灣人，還有那些推薦這篇文章的人們，你們的思維本身是不是出現了巨大的問題？
看得憤怒填膺的時候，也順便瀏覽了其他人的意見，見到了一位另一位台灣仁兄的文章（四川大地震還說風涼話，白目而冷血），覺得甚是有理：“你家鄰居失火了，反正他家存款有幾十億，房子又有保險，反正有燒不到你，所以不關你事？”。看了真是暢然啊。
大家同樣是漢族，我相信中國人也不會任意攻打台灣。想一想，你是中國中央的話，你會隨意向台灣發起戰爭嗎？對雙方不好又對自己大大失利的事情，中國不會做，況且都是自己同胞，福建湖南有著無數台灣人的祖鄉，自己打自己，笑死人了。
前幾天和老朋友談起中國，說起中國情操，他說了一句：“中國其實不把咱們海外華僑當作中國人啊。”， 讓我有無數的疑問。是不是我們祖輩離開了中國，血裡面流的不再是屬於華僑的血液了？為什麽當我們把自己當成華人時，卻認不到中國了？我相信我的老友不是其中一個。我們這班海外華人，馬來西亞的，新加坡的，泰國的，印尼的，美國的還有世界各地的，我們沒有自稱華人嗎？我們沒有用普通話抑或中國其中一個方言嗎？我們現在沒有親戚在中國嗎？
當然，活在當下我們是世界村民。我們應該對世界各地受災難所影響的人們伸出援手及關懷，可是畢竟很多時候我們做不到。本人認為，能向自己的同胞，同鄉，祖鄉及現在居住的國家的有需要人士伸出援手盡自己的一份力，已經是非常不簡單了。你們知道嗎，這么久以來，東南亞地區有發生華人大屠殺事件，中國都有偷偷派船隻來接走這些華人？五一三事件，中國有沒有扮演譴責的角色？暗地裡在泰國邊境也有派援，這些事情，馬來西亞政府不會告訴我們。馬來人不會告訴我們。牽涉的太廣，只有當事人才有消息。
老實說，真要這么舉證，我們才能夠去愛中國嗎？真的要刻意學習，我們才會愛中華文化嗎？我的華族同胞們，當我們自稱華族的時候，當我們在用著華語的時候，當我們在說著中華方言的時候，當我們在貢拜著中國道教的神明的時候，不要忘記我們的根。不要在我們被其他民族當成外族欺壓的時候才說，中國啊，幫我們說說話！不要在我們被其他民族欺壓的時候，以自己是華人的名義召集群眾，如果你平時把中國與華族看扁，不認同自己的根源與膚色。
是的，我討厭廣東文化及思想。可是，畢竟一百年以後連香港人也是在說著普通話了。我們都是華裔，都是屬於中華民族的。我們有責任肩負身為一個華人的基本態度及操行。我們有責任從一個人的角度去思考問題。
那些在台灣及其他地方推薦那篇文章的人們，你們最好不要再寫中文了。你們讓我覺得無比的噁心。你們不是華人，也不是台灣人。是的，我們上一代有國民黨及中共之戰，可是那時候何嘗不是各懷鬼胎？今天呢？大家面臨的是整個華族被威脅的命運，還要自搞內訌嗎？也想借此向某些香港居民發表一些意見：你們如果歧視中國，就別叫自己香港人。你們現在已經是在中國境內了。去到外面自稱香港人而厭惡中國人，這種行為太搞笑，太貽笑街坊了。
四川的人們需要我們。大家有錢出錢，有力出力。這裡我以一段視頻結尾。希望大家能盡己所能作出努力。中國加油！！！！！
Saturday, May 17, 2008
震
西川大地震，震醒了中華民族。
看到那么脆弱的混凝鋼筋結構在地震下應聲倒下，看到無數的孩子流的淚，看到無辜死亡的無數生命，我一次又一次的哭了。
歷史上差不多每件天災都涉及土木工程專業。雖然自己以前對土木工程的重要性十分了然，但是今天自己才真正了解自己肩負的責任有多重大。
每每看到溫家寶對營棚里被救出來的孩子們說：“你們能幸存下來，就要好好活下去。”，我就會哽咽，飯都吃不下去。
中國，你是中華民族的柱子與祖地，也是我心系的母國。我會為無數的亡魂祈禱，為自己未來的專業盡最大的努力，學到最好，然後奉獻給你。
中國加油！四川，撐下去！
看到那么脆弱的混凝鋼筋結構在地震下應聲倒下，看到無數的孩子流的淚，看到無辜死亡的無數生命，我一次又一次的哭了。
歷史上差不多每件天災都涉及土木工程專業。雖然自己以前對土木工程的重要性十分了然，但是今天自己才真正了解自己肩負的責任有多重大。
每每看到溫家寶對營棚里被救出來的孩子們說：“你們能幸存下來，就要好好活下去。”，我就會哽咽，飯都吃不下去。
中國，你是中華民族的柱子與祖地，也是我心系的母國。我會為無數的亡魂祈禱，為自己未來的專業盡最大的努力，學到最好，然後奉獻給你。
中國加油！四川，撐下去！
Friday, May 16, 2008
Sharingan
24 hours without sleep and a grueling war with the toughest clan on earth didn't seem to wear me out at all.
At the end of the war, after I slaughter the last breathe of my last enemy with my katana, I come to realize that I have come to arm myself with the greatest eye jutsu of all time: the Sharingan.
Yes, the Sharingan. I bet I am the amateur user now as I only have one comma in both eyes. But it feels so real, like an orgasm. The heightened sense of going to war with the feeling that you are faster than anyone.
Yes, the Uchiha legacy will live. The wars that I fought and will fight, will be remember well in the history. The swiftness of the slashes and perfect copy of the smart moves that my enemies take pride in.
And yes, the legacy continues with me.
At the end of the war, after I slaughter the last breathe of my last enemy with my katana, I come to realize that I have come to arm myself with the greatest eye jutsu of all time: the Sharingan.
Yes, the Sharingan. I bet I am the amateur user now as I only have one comma in both eyes. But it feels so real, like an orgasm. The heightened sense of going to war with the feeling that you are faster than anyone.
Yes, the Uchiha legacy will live. The wars that I fought and will fight, will be remember well in the history. The swiftness of the slashes and perfect copy of the smart moves that my enemies take pride in.
And yes, the legacy continues with me.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
The Matrix?
Damn, I am having this thing happening to me again. Sometimes when I am working very hard, even how high-spirited I am, I will suddenly feel so sleepy and I will then lie on the table, falling asleep.
The next thing I would know is there are diagrams from the subject I am reading being forcefully loaded into my brains. I would see self-explanatory notes on the confusing diagrams and data, flipping through my brains according to my own pace. This sensation will last for about half an hour, and when I wake up later, it seems that I can understand the subject intuitively.
I hope someone out there who share the same experience as I do tell me about your own experience as well. Jeez, it really does feel like being in the Matrix.
The next thing I would know is there are diagrams from the subject I am reading being forcefully loaded into my brains. I would see self-explanatory notes on the confusing diagrams and data, flipping through my brains according to my own pace. This sensation will last for about half an hour, and when I wake up later, it seems that I can understand the subject intuitively.
I hope someone out there who share the same experience as I do tell me about your own experience as well. Jeez, it really does feel like being in the Matrix.
Saturday, May 10, 2008
Some say
We lost the competition again, by close call. Everytime there will be something that we overlook or it happens that we meet someone who spoils up everything, for this time it is the Mr. Mad Technician of HKUST Concrete Lab who blew up our structure by assuming that the earthquake intensity and frequency for the model testing on his own. Fuck him. Because of him we thought the amplitude of this competition gonna be huge and we actually over-reinforce the structure and what the fuck is, we lose by 3 grams. Mother Lord.
Walking in my campus, wandering aimlessly looking for my lost pride. Where it is? Maybe it's time to...wait, lemme rephrase. It is definitely the time to repick my pride in my results, at least hold on to my scholarship. Yes, it's time.
Some say, we're never meant to grow up, I'm sure they never knew enough. I know the pressure won't go away. It's too late.
Walking in my campus, wandering aimlessly looking for my lost pride. Where it is? Maybe it's time to...wait, lemme rephrase. It is definitely the time to repick my pride in my results, at least hold on to my scholarship. Yes, it's time.
Some say, we're never meant to grow up, I'm sure they never knew enough. I know the pressure won't go away. It's too late.
Thursday, May 01, 2008
Coffee & some thoughts...
Just realized that lately I had been having a lot of coffee, and now already becoming addicted to its fragrance. Whenever I need to do a huge amount of work, whenever I need to do overnight studying, whenever I feel that my eyelids will drop anytime...yes, I will have coffee. Quite not the me who I use to be. I use to laugh at the effects of coffee because honestly, coffee didn't have any significant effect on me. I guess, I just need the feeling of staying awake and vigilant to cling onto.
Had some thoughts this afternoon:
1) When we try to be fast, we slow ourselves down; why not try to do something with my own heart without considering the speed?
2) something that seems to be absurd and totally unbelievable does not mean it does not and will not happen. What we think is normal, is just the fact that it is normal or not, doesn't mean it won't happen and it is not for good.
3) work hard n harder n harder. i don't deserve a bad grade. do i?
have a nice day everyone...ok, time to work!
Had some thoughts this afternoon:
1) When we try to be fast, we slow ourselves down; why not try to do something with my own heart without considering the speed?
2) something that seems to be absurd and totally unbelievable does not mean it does not and will not happen. What we think is normal, is just the fact that it is normal or not, doesn't mean it won't happen and it is not for good.
3) work hard n harder n harder. i don't deserve a bad grade. do i?
have a nice day everyone...ok, time to work!
Sunday, April 27, 2008
20%
Live for now, live for whatever that is present at this moment, not what is to come.
We will spend a whole 20% of our lives thinking bout the future. That is base on an assumption that one spends about 2 hours thinking bout tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, and even ten years later everyday. Isn't that scary?
In war, we fight for what is precious to ourselves. Sometimes, even without knowing it, we are sacrificing every bit of ourselves to protect those that we care about the most.
This is a war. We're all on it. Let us fight it, bravely, and courageously. Be strong, be vigilant, and triumph in every single effort of ourselves which is striving to keep things the way we wish they would be. Let's work the hardest. And, all of my buddies, I believe that we are ready.
Tomorrow comes with what we do today. Live. Live for today and a better tomorrow will come. Fight. Fight for today and a beautiful tomorrow awaits.
We will spend a whole 20% of our lives thinking bout the future. That is base on an assumption that one spends about 2 hours thinking bout tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, and even ten years later everyday. Isn't that scary?
In war, we fight for what is precious to ourselves. Sometimes, even without knowing it, we are sacrificing every bit of ourselves to protect those that we care about the most.
This is a war. We're all on it. Let us fight it, bravely, and courageously. Be strong, be vigilant, and triumph in every single effort of ourselves which is striving to keep things the way we wish they would be. Let's work the hardest. And, all of my buddies, I believe that we are ready.
Tomorrow comes with what we do today. Live. Live for today and a better tomorrow will come. Fight. Fight for today and a beautiful tomorrow awaits.
Saturday, April 12, 2008
輸入法升級！！！微軟的失敗。。。
昨天晚上挺興奮的，因為發現了兩種新的輸入法，一為谷歌輸入法，一為搜狗輸入法。後來發現原來谷歌輸入法有抄襲搜狗輸入法的跡象，自己在兩個不同公司的實 驗室網站看了一下，發現谷歌輸入法的確沒有搜狗的厲害，詞庫方面的導入也優化于谷歌的，感覺也快的很多。雖然發現到谷歌輸入法的妙處，可是用了用搜狗輸入 法，發現還是搜狗的妙一些。
好吧，我也就正式介紹大家這個互聯網裡最新的拼音輸入法技術。雖然話說谷歌輸入法不妙還有技術欠佳，可是它還是有一個可以在一面打字一面搜查google網站的特點，也不是全然不行的。可是若是要比起打中文字這一方面，還是搜狗遠遠領先了。
或許有一天谷歌進步了，那可能我會選用那個版本。確實，在任何方面來說，微軟輸入法已經被用者淘汰了。微軟弱勢越來越不妙，有接近崩潰的味道了。
就在此補丁上搜狗輸入法的網址及基本功能解釋吧：
網址：http://pinyin.sogou.com/
1. 超强互联网词库，无所不包
3. 功能强大，兼容多种输入习惯
好吧，我也就正式介紹大家這個互聯網裡最新的拼音輸入法技術。雖然話說谷歌輸入法不妙還有技術欠佳，可是它還是有一個可以在一面打字一面搜查google網站的特點，也不是全然不行的。可是若是要比起打中文字這一方面，還是搜狗遠遠領先了。
或許有一天谷歌進步了，那可能我會選用那個版本。確實，在任何方面來說，微軟輸入法已經被用者淘汰了。微軟弱勢越來越不妙，有接近崩潰的味道了。
就在此補丁上搜狗輸入法的網址及基本功能解釋吧：
網址：http://pinyin.sogou.com/
1. 超强互联网词库，无所不包
利用搜索引擎技术，根据搜索词生成的输入法互联网词库，能够覆盖所有类别的流行词汇。无论是最新的歌手、电视剧、电影名、游戏名，还是球星、软件名、动漫、歌曲、电视节目，全部一网打尽。
2. 先进的智能组词算法，首选词准确率第一最新的智能组词算法应用了领先的搜索引擎技术，分析搜索引擎语料库的语言模型，使搜狗输入法的首选词准确率在所有输入法中居第一。
3. 功能强大，兼容多种输入习惯
提供全面的按键设置和外观选择，尽可能适应各种常见输入法的输入习惯，使智能ABC、微软拼音、拼音加加、紫光拼音等输入法的用户都可以轻松上手。
4. 易用性佳，高级功能丰富通过对输入细节的观察，我们特别设计了许多体贴的功能，ign→ing拼音纠错、网址输入模式、词语联想、自动在线升级词库等为你创造更为流畅的输入体验！
哈哈，就此完結吧。哦，對了，對女生來說可能是個好消息。。。對的，搜狗輸入法擁有皮膚設置！！你可以擁有一個天花亂墜的輸入皮膚，不再是平庸的輸入畫面了。嘿嘿。。。不錯吧。。。去睇睇一下吧。;-)
Friday, March 07, 2008
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Revival
Things are getting back to normal, bit by bit. I can definitely feel the air of it. I am sure that next semester gonna be real comeback hit for me.
As my relationship grows towards stability, I am pretty sure I will have a large share of my time dedicated towards my studies and career in the year to come.
GAMBATTE!!!!!!!!
As my relationship grows towards stability, I am pretty sure I will have a large share of my time dedicated towards my studies and career in the year to come.
GAMBATTE!!!!!!!!
Thursday, January 03, 2008
New
Well hehe guys, i guess i din update for a goddamn long time...so urm, this is sth to review on since a whole new year has commenced and I din actually sit down for a quiet reflection.
Let's see...in the year 2007 i do have great achievements in Spring 2007 and a great summer, for that I met my gf and made two research projects a success. Things turn quite the other way for the other half as immense balancing between heavy work, studies and relationship. Let's just say I got myself trapped, with a clear conscience. And that hurts the most since I am actually feeling the pain, as if being whipped naked.
Life teaches me a lot more. That's what i can say. I changed. The view of politics, family, relationship and career. Well not a big swing but some parts in me were gone. And a part of my heart told me that I missed them. Time moves on. The thing is I get better of it as I love the new self more.
I am a man of darkness. Concealed in darkness always, I search for the meaning of life from time to time. In the past I go after a blink of romance; but for now I search for an eternity of family kind-of love. In the past I achieve for merely achieving; for now I achieve for who I am to be able to achieve. In the new 2008, a lot of huge international political struggles are forecasted, and the storm is sweeping tremendously in my ocean too. Things regretted, things wished, things prepared and things unprecedented. I am preparing myself to get ready. I need time for the mentality to sink in.
Seeing my parents getting old each day, a deep sadness entrench in my weak heart. Hopefully, the time of redemption will come fast as I start to earn myself my own living. At the same time, pouring out love and care to them is more than necessary. I failed to be a respectful son and I failed my mum a lot of times in the past. Hope that in the coming new year I will be able to give myself more to them.
Time flies. Wei zhi is interning in taiwan and my uni second year is going to end by June. Things are getting quite out of hands but they will be under control if a more prepared mind and mentality is summoned. Let's wait for yet another awakening of the dragon in my soul. I want something achieved this time. I hunger for another peak after the decline. This time I swear to go a greater length to do what I am supposed to be doing.
Good luck to all of you who spend not the time (or only a few short hours) with me. Paths are diverged but I think with the same mentality of our gang, we will be converging sooner than we thought, on the road of success and self-satisfaction. Be warned that huge storms are waiting ahead, but I know none of us will be scared. Let's take each other's hands, and march into the vast darkness beyond. God bless us in 2008.
Take care, all my old friends. Time it is for us to fight, fight again and keep fighting. Be it a sacred war or a hated one, we will triumph with our own hands, and build our own solid grounds. Cheers to 2008!!!!!
Let's see...in the year 2007 i do have great achievements in Spring 2007 and a great summer, for that I met my gf and made two research projects a success. Things turn quite the other way for the other half as immense balancing between heavy work, studies and relationship. Let's just say I got myself trapped, with a clear conscience. And that hurts the most since I am actually feeling the pain, as if being whipped naked.
Life teaches me a lot more. That's what i can say. I changed. The view of politics, family, relationship and career. Well not a big swing but some parts in me were gone. And a part of my heart told me that I missed them. Time moves on. The thing is I get better of it as I love the new self more.
I am a man of darkness. Concealed in darkness always, I search for the meaning of life from time to time. In the past I go after a blink of romance; but for now I search for an eternity of family kind-of love. In the past I achieve for merely achieving; for now I achieve for who I am to be able to achieve. In the new 2008, a lot of huge international political struggles are forecasted, and the storm is sweeping tremendously in my ocean too. Things regretted, things wished, things prepared and things unprecedented. I am preparing myself to get ready. I need time for the mentality to sink in.
Seeing my parents getting old each day, a deep sadness entrench in my weak heart. Hopefully, the time of redemption will come fast as I start to earn myself my own living. At the same time, pouring out love and care to them is more than necessary. I failed to be a respectful son and I failed my mum a lot of times in the past. Hope that in the coming new year I will be able to give myself more to them.
Time flies. Wei zhi is interning in taiwan and my uni second year is going to end by June. Things are getting quite out of hands but they will be under control if a more prepared mind and mentality is summoned. Let's wait for yet another awakening of the dragon in my soul. I want something achieved this time. I hunger for another peak after the decline. This time I swear to go a greater length to do what I am supposed to be doing.
Good luck to all of you who spend not the time (or only a few short hours) with me. Paths are diverged but I think with the same mentality of our gang, we will be converging sooner than we thought, on the road of success and self-satisfaction. Be warned that huge storms are waiting ahead, but I know none of us will be scared. Let's take each other's hands, and march into the vast darkness beyond. God bless us in 2008.
Take care, all my old friends. Time it is for us to fight, fight again and keep fighting. Be it a sacred war or a hated one, we will triumph with our own hands, and build our own solid grounds. Cheers to 2008!!!!!
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
Life's Prison: the Wrong Turn
The man who he should be, who he should not be? One righteous confession to the officer brings one into discharge and thus a life of a convict ahead. 90 grands of free ride ticket to the highest of all institutions...a structural engineer who owes his brother the sum which he thought he deserves it all the while?
Well, Prison Break got me grounded these few days. First is the structural engineer's charisma, that I have to agree. Second would be the way they narrate the stories of how a truthful, righteous man turn a single wrong corner, and ended up in Fox River Penitentiary.
Mind it. I have been starting to think about this these few days when I sat down before my comp to watch Prison Break. What would happen to me if one day I were to make the choice that possibly could make me go into the state I never want it to be? I mean if I were jailed for a rightful reason or whatsoever, what will become of my life? More importantly, what would become of my family members?
Michael Scofield has all the blueprints on his body. Even a genius who has low latent reception got overwhelmed by uncertainties. I guess that works in line with life too. Nobody could live life as the way they print it to be. It never will.
Well, I guess the last step I could take when I took a wrong turn is: Do what I feel is best and right to me and the people I am responsible for. But prevention is always better than cure. I just have to mind every step I take and every word I mutter, so that I really mean what I am doing and saying before that little step brought me into the deep mess of wrong turn consequences that I ever have to face.
Hope this will serve as a warning to myself. Let's get it implanted into my head before I wrap myself into my blankets tonight.
Well, Prison Break got me grounded these few days. First is the structural engineer's charisma, that I have to agree. Second would be the way they narrate the stories of how a truthful, righteous man turn a single wrong corner, and ended up in Fox River Penitentiary.
Mind it. I have been starting to think about this these few days when I sat down before my comp to watch Prison Break. What would happen to me if one day I were to make the choice that possibly could make me go into the state I never want it to be? I mean if I were jailed for a rightful reason or whatsoever, what will become of my life? More importantly, what would become of my family members?
Michael Scofield has all the blueprints on his body. Even a genius who has low latent reception got overwhelmed by uncertainties. I guess that works in line with life too. Nobody could live life as the way they print it to be. It never will.
Well, I guess the last step I could take when I took a wrong turn is: Do what I feel is best and right to me and the people I am responsible for. But prevention is always better than cure. I just have to mind every step I take and every word I mutter, so that I really mean what I am doing and saying before that little step brought me into the deep mess of wrong turn consequences that I ever have to face.
Hope this will serve as a warning to myself. Let's get it implanted into my head before I wrap myself into my blankets tonight.
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