In this uni, we are not striving for excellence or whatsoever. We are looking for something, and that something is ourselves.
In a foreign environment we come to realize who we are and how different we are. And when we try to adjust we change. And when things go wrong, we start to see what's churning inside of us and we start to shun away the environment.
Have confidence. Have faith.
Confidence is not something that you build up with each and every passing day. It is something that naturally comes when you start to acknowledge your own strengths and weaknesses. And that comes after you start to discover yourself. This indeed, needs courage. Because naturally one will try to run away from his/her own darkness in him/herself into the comfort zone where there is nothing else to worry or to think about. To grab the strength and confidence to stand up again, you need to brave the waves and endure. Feel the darkness totally, engulf yourself in it and let the merciless needles pierce through every single part of you.
Then you realize something: you are not dead yet.
This is life. I believe in something: when too much good happened, something bad will come along; but when too much bad happened, something good is on the way, surely. It is a cycle. More of the bad things, that means the good things that will entail will be much bigger.
So what happens in the end? Who knows. But I know something for sure. The answer will only reveal itself to those who don't give up. Those who still walk on the path even they know how weak they are. Because this path is their choice. That means: when you made a choice, follow through. Coz what's waiting for you in the end of the horizon will surely be a rising dawn.
Every single effort is worth it. Everything that happened, happens for a reason. And it is you who needs to understand the choice that you've made, not about why you made that choice. Ain't this life? There are so many choices made by ourselves both consciously and subconsciously. And there are so many choices made on us by so many other different people surrounding us. In the end of the day, if you try to disentangle all those knots, you will surely go nuts.
At this stage, what I believe is, believe in those knots. Those knots are there because they are there for a reason, and that reason is surely for good. For example, I got a C in my soil mechanics, and that happened to be my supervisor's subject. But because of that C, I was so eager to learn things that I missed and things that are new to me. I know my weakness and thus I can face myself in a lower stance, not trying to get too snobbish or air-headed. Because of that, I get to ascend to the highest peak.
Know thyself. That is what HKUST taught me in 3 years.
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In a foreign environment we come to realize who we are and how different we are. And when we try to adjust we change. And when things go wrong, we start to see what's churning inside of us and we start to shun away the environment.
Have confidence. Have faith.
Confidence is not something that you build up with each and every passing day. It is something that naturally comes when you start to acknowledge your own strengths and weaknesses. And that comes after you start to discover yourself. This indeed, needs courage. Because naturally one will try to run away from his/her own darkness in him/herself into the comfort zone where there is nothing else to worry or to think about. To grab the strength and confidence to stand up again, you need to brave the waves and endure. Feel the darkness totally, engulf yourself in it and let the merciless needles pierce through every single part of you.
Then you realize something: you are not dead yet.
This is life. I believe in something: when too much good happened, something bad will come along; but when too much bad happened, something good is on the way, surely. It is a cycle. More of the bad things, that means the good things that will entail will be much bigger.
So what happens in the end? Who knows. But I know something for sure. The answer will only reveal itself to those who don't give up. Those who still walk on the path even they know how weak they are. Because this path is their choice. That means: when you made a choice, follow through. Coz what's waiting for you in the end of the horizon will surely be a rising dawn.
Every single effort is worth it. Everything that happened, happens for a reason. And it is you who needs to understand the choice that you've made, not about why you made that choice. Ain't this life? There are so many choices made by ourselves both consciously and subconsciously. And there are so many choices made on us by so many other different people surrounding us. In the end of the day, if you try to disentangle all those knots, you will surely go nuts.
At this stage, what I believe is, believe in those knots. Those knots are there because they are there for a reason, and that reason is surely for good. For example, I got a C in my soil mechanics, and that happened to be my supervisor's subject. But because of that C, I was so eager to learn things that I missed and things that are new to me. I know my weakness and thus I can face myself in a lower stance, not trying to get too snobbish or air-headed. Because of that, I get to ascend to the highest peak.
Know thyself. That is what HKUST taught me in 3 years.
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3 comments:
hey this post touched me in ways i cudnt explain. maybe it was because i am going thru smtg similar at the moment..
we realise what we are and yes how different we are in a foreign environment..
it is a long path we tread, but with strength and determination, we will see thru it to the end. coz we are the ones who made the choice.. however difficult it might be.
thank you so much for your post. :)
you're welcomed...im glad that u are inspired ^^
studying overseas is not something to cherish about, now you shud know haha. the stress is even larger coz now we are dealing with both coursework and cultural difference. and oso our inner self.
it's a huge struggle but in the end it's worth it. we can't wait but to see the end of it, right? to evaluate how much we've learned throughout this stage.
gambate!!! my very best wishes to u in every single way. ;-)
yeah now i realised tat studying overseas is not tat fun as i used to think it was. especially if the environment is very different from ur home country's wan.
but yeah, the choice has been made and im already here. so i can only be positive and try my best to seek the opportunities here.
all the best to u too! jiayou! :)
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