Watched Miyazaki's "Kiki's Delivery" just now, and I have no regrets that I skipped study today and sort of who-knows-how get to watch Kiki's Delivery.
Always love Miyazaki's anime, not because of its art or whatsoever, but more on the themes. I bet Miyazaki is a person who travels a lot, if not then he sure dreams about travelling a hell lot. Almost all of his animes' stories are centered on the main character going to a foreign land to live and adventure, and mostly will settle there. I remember the first time I watched 'Spirited Away', I just left home and flown to Hong Kong. The feelings went so deep when I myself spirited away at the same time as well, like the character, wandering into a foreign land, exploring alone, and sometimes with friends tagging along as well.
And of course, animes are not reality. In reality, we get affected by the environment, both physically and mentally. We are unlike those anime characters who hold onto their faiths and personalities so strong that in the end they are the ones who change the environment and not otherwise. I rather would say that, it's mutual.
I would like to tell you guys my version of my story, and of course, this serves as a self reminder to myself as well. It's unfair to say that I am not changed by the environment. In fact, I did change, and from time to time I adjusted either way too much or way too little. I kinda get the catch and the hang of it now. But there's one safe conclusion I can draw: I lost myself since I entered this university. And I think I just found myself back.
Yes I did lose myself, and I was lost until like a week ago. I got airy, I got proud, I got cocky, arrogant, cibai, lansi, lanciao and whatsoever, you name it as you like. Until when I start to lose everything that I have, when every single thing is slipping away, I started to realize, "Shit, I have naught left in me...I am so empty."
When repicking my own footsteps these few weeks, I start to think about a lot of things. And I think that what I got from Kiki's Delivery should generalize all of it:-
Harry MacDowel is heightening his ohm says:
well haha what i learned suits my situation now la
it says that no matter how good u are or how natural u are at one thing
one day u will lose it oso
and that's the time when u realize that u are a student all along in ur life
then ur life will start to get wonderful when u are grateful for what u haf, haf respect for ppl u dun und or dunno anything about, and live everyday fully
WZ - eeevaaa says:
thats true
i guess thats the recipe for life
Harry MacDowel is heightening his ohm says:
yeah
once i started uni, i lost my life
becoz i stop being a student
i start to get proud
now i m back to square one
but i m happy
WZ - eeevaaa says:
good for u mate
Hopefully it's good for me. At least I am now a devoted student, to both his study and his life. Now, if you ask me what's the best role to be in in this world, my answer would be:
a devoted student. Well enough relaxation for now! Things will start to kick in starting tomorrow. I shall get myself to wake up at early morning so that I can get to lab to pick up my study schedule before I dive myself into the projects which are coming up.
Like Kiki, I am kinda preparing myself to leave for another journey now. When my heart hits the button 'yes', I will take my leave. The places I have in mind is: Tianjin (天津), Shanghai (上海), Beijing (北京), Tokyo (東京) or Kyoto (京都). The first three places are for working and the last two are for furthering my study. I would probably take up master degree in my current university while I am preparing myself. But anytime I decided, I will surely take off almost immediately bah. Already had the companies that I wanna work in d also...and for Japan, I might have to wait two more years or one year if I took off to work. Till then, I might plan to just go to Japan for japanese studies and then US for my phD. But anyways, I really dunno haha so don't ask me as well. I am trying to let my mind free for this moment as exams are cramming in.
But the truth is, I feel like travelling to a foreign land and to live by myself again. This time, the desire is very strong. I think maybe it's because I kinda have my direction and thoughts more or less moulded already, and also I am starting to get tired of Hong Kong. The only reason I stay here is to finish up the research my boss have me doing right now. It's a bit waste if I were to leave it stranded like that.
Anyways, will probably leave this blog unattended for the coming month, so dun expect anything haha! And dan, I din forget my promise about Perth. Don't you worry, I will settle my ass there asap when I have the mood. Won't be too long lol. Let's see what we both can achieve at that time then.
Gambatte ne everybody!!!
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